Gone-d Bloggie.

Spent the whole day trying to work on a new blogskin since I'm super free right now, and ended up getting grumpy + irritated + annoyed + whatever you name it, and nearly dump this blog. forever.


Due to the fact that I'm an IT idiot, so it's a bit too much for me to handle such tough mission*coughstupidcough*


Anyways a big thank you to Evelyn, who helped me to 'revive' it! teehee! *big applause*


Grrrrrrrrr. I hate myself for being so stupid -_______-


Okay. Just randomly talk about my holidays now :D

1st. I sleep.
2nd. I eat.
3rd. I online.
4th. I hang out. once.
5th. I sleep. again. (like I could never ever sleep again in the rest of my life)


Sometimes I'm so impressed with my sleeping ability. I can sleep for straight 12 hours per day during holidays yet I feel so sleepy throughout the day. ZzzzzzZzzzzZzzzzzzz.

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There's this touching video which I think it's worth sharing :)

What you guys think after watching this video? No doubt it very touching, but will you believe that there's actually someone who will do anything for the girl he loves? I didnt mean to spoil the mood after watching it ayte. Even I myself also watched until cried. Just that somehow I don't really believe in such stories, not that I say there's no one who will sacrifice anything for the one he/she loves, just that it's quite rare. And you must be really lucky to meet such a person in your life, if you have one.

I did hope for some great lover, some memorable and romantic relationship *dream on* teehee! That sounds so great can? But as I grow up, meet different people, see different things, I realized that it's actually not easy, in fact, it's very very hard, to meet someone like that. For some people even the one they married with is not the one they really love, or maybe the love is not so deep. Finding the right person to fill in another part of us isnt easy.

There's one thing that I realized, it's not all the nice words or great poems that can actually melts someone's heart, it's the most simple words which were spoken with a sincere heart. What do you think? :)

选择相信？

Am I on my own?

最近总是在上一秒觉得困倦，下一秒一躺在床上的时候却又翻来覆去地睡不着。不想想太多，可是思绪仍旧围绕在周围所发生的事，那些过去，以及曾经的伤痛。夜阑人静的时候，人都是沉默而抑郁的么？





想到最近看的戏，结局都是没有想象中的完美。就因为在现实的世界里鲜少会有完美的大结局，因此多少渴求在虚幻的剧情里寻求那丝希望。





有的人说：你看起来真的好坚强，这么快就可以快快乐乐的生活了。





是吗？那是好事吧。或许是在事情还没发生的时候已隐约预见如此的结果，或许是早就已经伤痕累累了。瑟静的深夜里，偶然的思绪被带到昔日的伤痛时，才发现原来自己是那么的不堪一击。曾经想把过去的哀痛深深的埋起来，奢望着善忘自己很快就将它们遗忘。忙碌的日子里，我的确将它们淡忘，模糊了，就连轮廓也渐渐的，看不清了。偶然，锐利的思绪一不小心在同一个伤疤上划上一小刀时，脆弱的伤疤立即破裂。当日埋藏的地点丝毫不误的记得。那样的清晰。深深的质疑着，我是不是真的完全复原了。





就因为复原了，所以很多事都不再介怀了不是么？就因为复原了，所以存在与否已经不再是一个问题了不是么？就因为复原了，所以很多往事已然淡忘。揪紧的心，疼痛得快让人窒息。是因为往事不堪回首，所以哀伤？





不再介怀是事实，没有牵挂亦是事实。





只是不想再去触碰那依然脆弱的伤痕。只是不愿记起往日的伤痛。只是不敢再去随心所欲的在感情上推心置腹。很多窝心的话语在瞬间蜕变成丑恶的谎言，冷峻的事实彷佛一把锐利的尖刀直刺内心最脆弱处。开始害怕相信会有真心。战战兢兢的心情。





想平静的过好生活。相信着总有一天伤痕会结痂。相信总有一天伤疤只会是一道伤疤。选择相信身边真诚的友谊与亲情。