.Just.Being.ME.

~17.10.2009~

2009-10-17T13:06:00.017+08:00

17.10.2009. The date on which my cousin get married :)

All the pictures below are taken using my handphone, which the quality, of course, isnt very good compared to those used by the photographer and other cameras used, so I shall post a more detailed post next time if i get a chance to lay my hands on those nice pictures kay ;)

*A lovely Mini Cooper which my cousin's husband drove it himself to fetch the bride*

*Awww, so cute :) *

*some sort of games they played, which the bridegroom and his 'heng dai' must go through before going upstairs to get the bride--there's a few games they played though.*

*My honour to be one of the 'ji mui's of the day :P *

*pretty and happy bride*

*roasted pig*

*after this i changed the mode of camera and started to take some emo-fied pictures*

*after went through all the 'barriers' to get the bride, and all those rituals that need to be followed--before leaving the house*

*Little Ian walking around joining and sharing the fun and happiness*

*picture of the day--a lil' blurred though--Little Ian went and became a joint bridesmaid ;P*

Just a lil' short updates. Will update more depending on my mood, teehee! ;)

Just Being RanDoM.

2009-10-09T15:09:00.004+08:00

Suddenly realised it has been a really long time since I last updated my blog, LOL.

What I've been up to? I'm pretty clueless as well, time passed, things come and go, I ended up passing all the days without noticing how near I'm to my mock and finals. And yet again I'm procrastinating, utilising every possible minutes in something else other than studying, epp!

Somehow the emergence of facebook (in my life) make blogging unnecessary for me, any pictures, updates, thoughts and even what game u've been playing are updated within a second in fb, and blogging it out seemed to be a double work. Nevertheless, blog is a good way to express inner feelings, though. At least it's not so 'open' as facebook, with some unknown contacts in my list. ~.~

~* Celebration of Eve's Bday @ Wong Kok 8.10.2009. Pic that I love. *~

With so many things that happened recently, made me realised how I have been reacting, perhaps very inapproriately, I don't know. At that point of time only I realised the importance of having that person around, even though it represents uncertainties and, much more uncertainties. Sometimes when life gets hard, things get complicated, making things simple seems to be a hardest thing at tht point of time, especially people are outraged, fear, selfish, and helpless. It's a fact that I'm actually very highly driven by my own personal emotions now, compared to the one i used to be. I can actually masked my own feelings and continue with my own life. But for now, it seems hard and if i'm upset, it's straightaway shown on my face.

Is it a good thing or a bad thing?

~* Dedicated to my best friends, and the special ones :) *~

However, I'm really grateful that this time around, I'm not feeling as helpless as I was last time, with someone to talk to :)

There's once i got a daily inspirational quote of 'take a break' and it was exactly what I want. I'm not busy, not free, I'm just living without motivation and motive. How sad it is :(

Perhaps it's time for me to regain my motivation and confidence, even though I don't have any idea of how to do it.

Without You~*

2009-01-31T22:53:00.003+08:00

Came across this song when I was searching for some new songs in youtube, and I like it a lot ;) ~* Somehow it's pretty emo-fied, yet it gave me the feeling of serenity and peacefulness, just like those 'Christmas night' feel, when we get to have some time for ourselves, to think back, and to look forward as well. Dunno whether you guys get what I meant but, it's alright anyway, just try listening to it. Enjoy! :)

Verse One

Another day, another reminder.
That you're not here with me.
I watch the snowflakes falling from the skies.
I get lost in memories.
The time we try to build a snow man.
The time we try to count the stars.
It's crazy how we didn't know that.
That we'd ever be apart.

Chorus
I can hear the music playing.
See the lights upon the tree.
I can feel the joy in every soul.
But for me it's incomplete.
And i try my best to play the part.
But no matter what i do.
No, it just don't feel like christmas, without you.
Youuuuuu, you, you. No.

Verse Two
Another tear, another regret boy.
That your so far away.
Can't believe it was only last year.
We shared that christmas day.
Remember when we took the sleigh ride.
Remember singing by the fire.
There's not too muches in the day light.
I keep re-living you and I.

(Chorus)Breakdown:
The time we try to build a snow man.
The time we tried to count the stars.
It's crazy how we didn't know that.
That we'd ever be apart.

(Chorus)
No, it just dont feel like xmas, without you...
Oooh baby.
See I try but I just didn't ride.
Without you.

2nd day of CNY @ MV, Old Klang Road, MV

2009-01-28T12:11:00.022+08:00

2nd day of Chinese New Year

For the 2nd day of CNY, I went to my uncle's hse which is nearby OUG. Before that we went MV for breakfast @ The Gardens, and visit my Aunt Jenny who's working at MV.

Candid >___<

Didnt realise that my bro was taking this picture when I was busy messaging.

Posing~ Lol xD

It was quite boring though, as the relatives that came werent as many as last year, and we all were just watching tv programmes while having some random chat. We actually watched the Miss International Pageant 2009 and "Ji Gong" starring by Stephen Chow, which was damn lame in my opinion -_________-

We lepak-ed there for few hours before we headed back to MV, again, for late lunch and shopping! ;D Or window shopping, to be exact, since I didnt manage to buy anything from there. We had our late lunch/ early dinner @ Purple Cane, The Gardens. The food there was okay, but a lil' pricy. We all were soooo hungry that we didnt even bother to take pictures of the nice food 1st before we ate them xD

This was candid as well, with my "???" expression >____<

Was thinking of having some dessert at tht point of time, bu too bad tht few desserts that I wanted all finished :( Sighs.

Me and my Bro @ The Gardens. Totally adore the lights behind! :)

U can see that my bro is actually very tall, and he's just 16 years old =/ Can u imagine how tall he would be in a few years time?

After having our meal we went back straighaway, and since we have loads of time we started taking pictures :P

Me and my bro.

In fact, normally me and bro didnt really chat much ( as in daily life ) since we're in the different room and seldom gather together, there's nothing much we can chat also. Anyhow, during this CNY we chat quite a lot, well, as compared to before this and it was great :)

My bro claimed that he doesnt look good in these pictures but I dont think so :D

Do we look alike??

Failed attempt to promote a handphone xD

I love this picture, but it's kinda blurry.

And this even more blurry than the previous one >.<

Gotta go now, take care people! :)

*posted on 31/01/2009

Of Reunion Dinner and The 1st Day Of CNY

2009-01-26T20:36:00.025+08:00

Hi everyone! It's the 2nd day of Chinese New Year today, and this new year is quite okay only for me, due to the boredom we ( me and my siblings ) experienced for these few days >_________<

Anyways, having holidays and meeting relatives are definitely better than rotting at home or having class, so I shall appreciate it ;)

Well, it's has been a meaningful day for everyone being far away from hometown, or people who rarely have some family-bonding time together ( like our family ) on Chinese New Year Eve. Normally our family wont have dinner at the same time, or gather around to chat about happenings around each and every one of us, except during weekends whereby we can actually go out for dinner together and chat about every single thing. It's sad I know :( So, this Chinese New Year Eve could be considered as a lil' gathering / reunion among my family members.

I uploaded these pictures last night, did some effort of adding in my blog's add, and I found it kinda tedious and, well, irritating. Lol. Salute to those bloggers who actually put in their efforts in their blog, even though this lil' work isn't that hard.

Okay let's get back on track and talk about my reunion dinner. Overall, it was great :D With me and my sis' help in the kitchen, we actually done cooking earlier than usual, teehee! And these are the pictures of our dinner :

Yummylicious Prawns! My favourite! :) And this was cooked by me! Hehe! *proud* Well, all the dishes were actually the 'masterpiece' of three of us ( me, my mom and my sis ) Just that I so happened to be cooking on this dish only.

2nd dish : Fish~! And this was cooked by my sis :)

3rd dish : Okay I dunno wht is this called >____<>

4th dish : Veggies. Cooked by me. Doesnt look much appealing I know... But one important thing is : it's edible :D

5th dish : Yummy Roasted Chicken, cooked by my sis ;)

Overall picture~* Oh ya, there was soup as well, but didnt capture a nice picture of it.

We actually prepared and cooked it for few hours, and we all finished our food in about, 15 - 20 minutes I think? But we didnt finish every single dish. Chinese believed that we should leave some food as it implies "nian nian you yu" izit? I'm not pretty sure about this but the fact is that we couldnt finish so much of food xD

After dinner we all just watch tv programmes and chit-chat together. Pretty enjoy this kinda feeling as we rarely spend time together like this. Hmm I didnt countdown for Chinese New Year, I was sleeping instead of counting down for the brand new year actually, despite the loud noise of firecrackers and fireworks everywhere 'cause I was just too sleepy at that moment. I found that I'm actually very good in sleeping :D hee!

1st day of CNY

I felt sort of excited and thrilled when I 1st woke up, thinking that it's the very 1st day of CNY, and it's definitely a big day for us :) After we got ourselves prepared, we went to my aunt's and subsequently to my granpa's house after the 1st visit. And one thing that kept me excited is actually my newly bought top for CNY, hehe!

Me and my sis took a lot of pics, like seriously, after the visits. We snapped like 20 to 30 pictures with the same angle and same spot xD Haha! So please bear with us, Lol!

For this CNY it's a bit boring as there's actually not really many of them that could make it for the gathering, and as there're lesser people, it wouldnt as merry as it was like the previous CNY.

So, it turned out to be the lil' gathering among me and my siblings =.= We chatted loads of things, took some random pictures, and of course, eat and drink, lol~ Normally it's quite rare for three of us to gather and share our thoughts, as each and every of us would be busy with our own stuffs. And for me and my sis, it's a habit for both of us to share all happenings and thoughts among ourselves as we are staying in the same room. At times I did feel upset just 'cause I couldnt get my own room as I dreamt for ( so as my sis ), but both of us actually feel grateful that we're staying in the same room. If not our relationship might not be as intimate as we're now.

Although we always argue ( and fight a lot, when we're young ), those arguments and disagreement will be forgotten awhile later, and the next moment you know, we're chatting happily again ;)

Without her, I wont be the one I am now. She did influence me a lot, directly or indirectly, and some of them she might not even noticed. She cares about the one she loves alot. She's passionate, and cheerful as well :) No matter how she's still my sis, and I loves her a lot, hee!

This is like my 'alwyz' spot for taking pics ;P

I like this picture a lot~!*

This picture and two more pictures below were edited by my sis.

My pretty sis :D

I'm like doing some sort of advertisement for hello kitty in this pic =.=

We felt bored after some time and start taking pictures like these.

And this. I looked damn yong sui in this pic can? >.<"

And this as well.

Anyways, gotta go to bed dy as tmrw I hafta wake up early again! Oh god I hope I have endless holidays! Havent start on any single thing yet and guess I will only have time to finish my homework on the last day of holiday, epp! :P

Hope u guys will have fun during this holiday~! Bye~* :)

Anticipation

2009-01-24T18:04:00.003+08:00

Hello hello~! It has been quite some time since i last blogged ( very long time, in fact ) Anyways, how's everyone doing? Going back hometown and busy preparing for the upcoming CNY perhaps? :)

Unlike last year, I won't be going back to Johor as my relatives are coming up from Johor! It has been really long since I last met up with them, around 1 year I guess? And some even longer. No doubt all of my family members are excited when we knew that they're coming over to celebrate CNY together, and to have some bonding and chit-chatting sessions, especially my mom ;)

Talking about going back hometown, some of my friends get to come back to KL during this holiday, and hopefully we manage to do some catch ups before our CNY break ends, hehe! Sometimes I do hope that I can have hometown other than KL, as in places other than where I'm living now ( sounds kinda sily though ), but at least I got to enjoy the joy and happiness of travelling back hometown and meet my relatives. After being apart for so long, not knowing how each other's doing, the reunion of all family members would definitely be warm and worth remembering.

However, even though all my relatives are staying in KL, there's actually not much chance for us to gather around, so it would be great to meet up once in awhile :)

Tomorrow is Chinese New Year Eve and we all will be busy helping out in kitchen ( and have fun, of course! ) Hehe! Time passes so fast, I still can remember we actually found snail in the veggies last year during preparation for reunion dinner =.= And now I'm in the twenties' range dy, gosh I feel old :(

Anyways, Happy Chinese New Year to everyone and hope those who're celebrating CNY will have a good time ;)

More updates during CNY! Cya~!

2 down 1 to go

2008-12-03T18:38:00.007+08:00

Tax and Law paper is OVER !! Like FINALLY! Wee!

Hopefully I wont be using the tax notes and law textbook anymore. Pleaseee! >__< *prays hard* The only paper left is costing, which falls on the 8th of December. Feeling quite free right now and have been wasting whole day doing nothing, which is not a good thing at all -____- Been having loads of stuffs in my mind when I was studying earlier for tax and law, ie. Where to go and what to do after final! Really cant wait for it to end!

Cant remember where I found this picture but it's uber cute :)

Firstly, I wanna relax / sleep as much as I can! Teehee! Although I'm kinda relaxing ryte now. Epp. Anyway the feeling of 'relax' after exam is definitely much bigger difference than that kinda of 'relax' I'm having ryte now.

Spa! Just if I have the money ;(

Never been that stressed out before in my life, and ever since I proceed to ACCA the level of stress increased magnificantly -________- Apart from the strict marking and time constraint, my laziness contributed significantly as well, no doubt. All the last minute studies and skipping classes. Epp. How ahh? Where has my motiation been to? :(

Anyway, I still think I deserve some holidays, for coping with the high level of stress xD Lol.

Secondly, I wanna watch movies / dramas like there's no tmrw! Haha! ;)

Especially this :

Twilight is an action-packed, modern day love story between a vampire and a human. Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother remarries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn’t expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson), a boy unlike any she’s ever met. Intelligent and witty, he sees straight into her soul. Soon, Bella and Edward are swept up in a passionate and decidedly unorthodox romance. Edward can run faster than a mountain lion, he can stop a moving car with his bare hands - and he hasn’t aged since 1918. Like all vampires, he’s immortal. But he doesn’t have fangs, and he doesn’t drink human blood; Edward and his family are unique among vampires in their lifestyle choice. To Edward, Bella is that thing he has waited 90 years for - a soul mate. But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy. But what will Edward & Bella do when James (Cam Gigandet), Laurent (Edi Gathegi) and Victoria (Rachelle Lefevre), the Cullens’ mortal vampire enemies, come to town, looking for her?

Well, the story sounds nice eh? Gotta buy the novel as well, hehe! 3 weeks holiday is just too few, like seriously! Compared to other people's 3 months holiday, our holiday isnt holiday at all -________- anyway, better than nothing I shall say.

Thirdly, I wanna go shopping! Megasales are everywhere and I hope I can go shopping.. Been rotting at home for so long and I'm so desperate to go out, haha! :) Out for shopping after final, anyone? Hee!

It took me few hours to complete this post -________- Laggy computer. Jezz.

p.s. I miss my friends! Be it high school friends or my course mates! Meet up one day, shall we? ;)

Just a lil' update~ :)

2008-11-10T14:41:00.007+08:00

Hello people~! ;)

It has been quite some time since I last update, so just thought of updating a lil' about my recent life before I go missing again, hee!

Our normal classes have come to an end, and from now on there's just edc/ efc ( revision classes ). Well my final is around the corner and I seriously need motivation to really sit down and study instead of busying on everything other than studies. Someone scold me please >.<
Arghh.

Anyway, went to this ACCA 34th Graduation Ceremony on 8th of Nov which is on Saturday @ KLCC. I went out from my house at around 8.15 am and that time Jovan called me asking me whether I have already registered my name. I was pretty shocked, thinking that I was late as I didnt really check properly with them before this. I further confirmed with him as to whether we're supposed to wear coat and the answer turned out to be a 'yes', which is very bad for me as I don't have any. Lol.

I turned back ( that time I was already on my way to KLCC ) to borrow a coat from my cousin and only then I rushed there >.<>.<

It's definitely much better than our college's own graduation ceremony. Be it of it's setting or it's food.

However, I reached there in time :) hehe!

There's a lot of graduates holding flowers and wearing robes, happily taking pictures with their families. That time I actually kinda felt determined ( so-called 'determined' ) to finish my ACCA faster so that I can be part of them.

I even asked my dad, " Pa, will you buy me flowers when I graduate from ACCA next time?"

Dad, " Sure. Why not?"

Me, " Then I want got kuma-kuma one worr."

Haha! xD

Hopefully I can finish my ACCA faster. Haiz~

I wanna be part of them also! :D

The seat and table-setting is much nicer compared to ...*ahem ahem*

We waited for around 3 hours plus for our turn to get the prize from the ACCA president. Frankly speaking, I kinda pity him ( the president ) as he has to give the cert to each and every affiliates, with the same pose and same smile. Mind you, there's about 900 plus affiliates! ( Including Dec 2007 and June 2008's affiliates ) Yet, he still managed to maintain the same bright smile towards the end of the ceremony and gave some encouraging words to each and every of us. ( I think so, at least he did say something like "well done, blah blah blah.." to me. Didnt really get what he said as I didnt expect him to say anything to me. Lol. )

Even the admission card also much better can?

* Reminds me of the "EAT No"on my admission card during Sunway College ACCA/ CAT Graduation -- It supposed to be "SEAT No" but somehow the "S" turned out to be missing*

*Looks like I've been complaining too much. Epp!*

Finally it's our lunch time at around 1 plus, and they serves chinese dishes ( like those we had during CNY or wedding dinner ) The food was nice, hee! I *heart* the dessert! Some creamy coconut milk with honeydew and sago thingy, yummylicious! ~ :)

It was actually quite a waste for those food as the portion they served was too big for us, and ended up each and every of the dishes we could only finish about half of it. There're so many tables there ( around 100 I guess ) and I wonder what they gonna do with all those leftovers. Hopefully they won't 're-use' it ~___~

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p.s. My house is currently having some renovation and it's veryyyy noisy -________- *beh tahan* It's driving me crazy~! Grrrrrrr.

p.p.s. I need to sleep =(

Steff's Birthday ~ 251008 ;)

2008-10-26T12:17:00.025+08:00

Steff's surprise b-day party @ MV

25/10/2008 :)

Attended by Steff ( of course ), Cath, Emiko, Siewlin, Me, Kak Liza, Shirod, Vanessa, Ong, Joseph, David, Darren and Aruna :)

All of us arrived at Nando's at around 11.30am and waited for Cath to bring Steff there. Before this Cath told Steff that only we girls will be celebrating for her, teehee!

I'm taking pic too! :D

Had much fun on that day itself, chatting and laughing away during that 2 hours.

We girls ;)

With the b-day girl in between of us!

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B-day girl looks happy :)

Apart from celebrating her b-day we gave her a present too >> a purse~!

Me, Cath and Aruna 'kacau-ing' at the side ;P

My 1st picture with David.

Why I looked so ==........

Emiko and Steffie!

After paying the bills we were basically taking pictures around, as usual! hehe!

Kak Liza, Steff, Me and Aruna.

Me love this picture! Hee!

5 of us again ;P

Love this picture as well!

Somehow blurry picture looks nicer XD haha~

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Was browsing through all the pictures taken and found that all these I have never posted them, due to my laziness and lost of ethusiasm in blogging *epp* so just post them here as well ;P

Outing @ 1U

2/10/2008

*gosh it's like a month ago*

Enjoyed hanging out with them a lot ! hehe! :D

Hope there's more to come soon!

Okay the following is super looooooooong overdue.

Forgot to post them in my previous post about cath's b-day ;P

Tadah! Done!!!!! *phew*

I'm being super lazy now, epp! Will post something proper next time ayte. * i think*

p.s. Mock is finally over! And it's the worst among all the tests I have ever had so far >.<>

Tagged.

2008-10-05T09:03:00.002+08:00

Tagged by Darren and Joey, so shall do the tags together then :)

1. what's the relationship of you and her/him ?

Both : Friends

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him ?

Darren : Loves music and movies, Rebellious, Know what he wants, Loves freedom, Confident

Joey : Nice to chat with, Loves online, Can be a caring friend, Quiet? *I think so, teehee!*. Didnt really talk much when we were in the same class last semester though, and for now normally we just chat through msn :)

3. The most memorable things she/he have said to you

Both : Quite a lot that we chat before, and there's no particular sentences or quotes that I remember very well anyway...

4. The most memorable things she/he had done for you

Darren : There's quite a number of memorable things actually, and the most memorable ones shall be the teddy bear and the poem.

Joey : Hmm, wishing me happy b-day :P Didnt expect him to know my b-day though~

5. If she/he became your lover, you will..

Both : For whoever who become my lover I'll definitely treasure him, share each and every of my feelings with him, and hopefully we would make each other a better person :) So same goes to both of them!

6. If she/he become your enemy, you will..

Both : There would definitely be some misunderstandings or something unpleasant that caused so, anyways I really doubt we will really be enemies 'cause I can hardly think of any reason that makes me treat someone as my enemy. Hopefully no one treats me as enemy ayte XD

7. If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on..

Darren : To be more sensitive to other's feelings/mood, and be observative I guess :P

Joey : Hmm this is rather difficult for me to answer =/ To more active? Lol. I cant really think of any actually~

8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is..

Both : As I said before, it's either there's some misunderstandings or unpleasant happenings that caused so, or maybe I pissed them off by irritating them? XD I hardly treat someone as enemy though, so if someone ever become my enemy that'll be a serious case~

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is ?

Darren : Wait till he get married and tease him! Lol. XP

Joey : Urm, to chat or maybe hang out with a big bunch of friends with him perhaps? It's quite sad actually, being classmates for half a year yet we are just hi-bye friends :P

10. The overall impression of him/her is...

Both : Both of them are nice friends to talk with :)

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you ?

Quiet but can be talkative at times, blur, forgetful, and hardworking / nerdy? *sighs*

12. The character of you for yourself is ?

Will talk a lot only with those I'm close with, blur, forgetful and I ended up leaving my belongings here and there which I hafta spend lots of effort retrieving them >.<

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?

My mood swings fast I guess? And my tidak-apa attitude.

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is ?

Could be more sporting and friendly, not afraid to express my feelings and to be who I am :)

15. For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them.

Thanks for being there always and help me whenever I need, care about me, and I treasure each and every of you for being part of my life, making me a better person :)

Ten people to tag
1. Cath
2. Siewlin
3. Liza
4. Evelyn
5. Billy
6. Li Yun
7. Joey
8. David
9. Wei Chian
10. Mae Yan

Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
I have no idea :P *just jk lar hee! she's currently single and available*

no.3 is a male or female ?
Definitely female :)

if no.7 and no.10 were together, would it be a good thing ?
Hmm..not bad I guess? XP

no.5 and no.8 ?
I wonder how will it be like XD

what is no.1 studying about?
CAT~

is no.4 single ?
Currently single~

say something about no.6 ?
A nice and cute girl, quite uncertain about what to do at times, but she's definitely a smart girl ayte ;) Not used to express herself out in public, but only to those that she's close with. Feels comfortable when chatting or being with her :)

Gone-d Bloggie.

2008-10-04T17:14:00.005+08:00

Spent the whole day trying to work on a new blogskin since I'm super free right now, and ended up getting grumpy + irritated + annoyed + whatever you name it, and nearly dump this blog. forever.

Due to the fact that I'm an IT idiot, so it's a bit too much for me to handle such tough mission*coughstupidcough*

Anyways a big thank you to Evelyn, who helped me to 'revive' it! teehee! *big applause*

Grrrrrrrrr. I hate myself for being so stupid -_______-

Okay. Just randomly talk about my holidays now :D

1st. I sleep.
2nd. I eat.
3rd. I online.
4th. I hang out. once.
5th. I sleep. again. (like I could never ever sleep again in the rest of my life)

Sometimes I'm so impressed with my sleeping ability. I can sleep for straight 12 hours per day during holidays yet I feel so sleepy throughout the day. ZzzzzzZzzzzZzzzzzzz.

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There's this touching video which I think it's worth sharing :)

What you guys think after watching this video? No doubt it very touching, but will you believe that there's actually someone who will do anything for the girl he loves? I didnt mean to spoil the mood after watching it ayte. Even I myself also watched until cried. Just that somehow I don't really believe in such stories, not that I say there's no one who will sacrifice anything for the one he/she loves, just that it's quite rare. And you must be really lucky to meet such a person in your life, if you have one.

I did hope for some great lover, some memorable and romantic relationship *dream on* teehee! That sounds so great can? But as I grow up, meet different people, see different things, I realized that it's actually not easy, in fact, it's very very hard, to meet someone like that. For some people even the one they married with is not the one they really love, or maybe the love is not so deep. Finding the right person to fill in another part of us isnt easy.

There's one thing that I realized, it's not all the nice words or great poems that can actually melts someone's heart, it's the most simple words which were spoken with a sincere heart. What do you think? :)

Just Stand Up ! :)

2008-09-30T13:19:00.002+08:00

My current addict~*

It serves some sorta inspiring/encouraging purpose for me, hee! There's definitely some songs / phrases / quotes that encourage each and every of us when we're down, right? I guess so :)

May all obstacles lay in front be overcome with our strong will and strive to achieve what we looking for :)

Stand up

Mariah Carey, Beyonce, Rihanna, Fergie, Miley Cyrus, More Collaborate On Cancer Benefit Single"Just Stand Up" produced by L.A. Reid and Babyface Edmonds.

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Lyrics:

Beyonce: The heart is stronger than you think,

It's like it can go through anything.

And even when you think it can't it finds a way to still push on, though

Carrie: Sometimes you want to run away,

Ain't got the patience for the pain

And if you don't believe it look into, your heart the beat goes on

Rihanna: I'm tellin' you that,

Rihanna/Miley: Things get better,

Through whatever

Rihanna: If you fall, dust it off, don't let up

Sheryl: Don't you know you can go be your own miracle

Beyonce: You need to know

CHORUS :

Sheryl: If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough,

But the heart keeps telling you don't give up

Sheryl/Beyonce: Who are we to be..questioning, wondering what is what

Don't give up...THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Fergie: It's like we all have better days

Problems getting all up in your face

Leona: Just because you go through it

Fergie: Don't mean it got to take control, no

Leona: You ain't gotta find no hiding place

Keyshia: Because the heart can beat the hate

Leona: Don't wanna let your mind keep playin' you

Keyshia: And sayin' you can't go on

Rihanna: I'm tellin' you that

Miley: Things get better

Through whatever

Rihanna: If you fall

Miley: Dust if off, don't let up

LeAnn: Don't you know you

Natasha: Can go

LeAnn: Be your own

Natasha: Miracle

Carrie: You need to know

Ensemble: CHORUS

Mary: You don't gotta be a prisoner in your mind

Ciara: If you fall, dust it off

Mary: You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah

Mary: Let your heart be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah yeah yeah

Mariah: And you will know that you're good if you trust in the good

Ashanti: Everything will be alright, yeah

Light up the dark, if you follow your heart

Mary: And it will get better

Mariah: Through whatever

CHORUS

Fergie: You got it in you, find it within

You got in now, find it within now

You got in you, find it within

You got in now, find it within now

You got in you, find it within

Find it within you, find it within

Everyone: THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Stories behind personality

2008-09-13T15:14:00.003+08:00

Ello ello~*! :)

Decided to update a lil' bit since I finally got the free time to online, hee! ( Not that I'm VERY busy, just that my interest right now is get as much sleep as possible ;P )

Met up with Cath, Siewlin and Emiko on Thursday at 1u and it was good :) It has been quite some time since we last sit down chit-chat, and we spent around an hour plus sitting down in a Thai restaurant I guess, hehe! Hang out until around 5pm only I went back with some newly bought facial stuffs ;)
*Bye bye my allowance ;(*

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Took part in this Tax Challenge Competition - group category ( I'm the reserve anyway, hehe ) which includes Ding, Ethan, Jovan and Serng as well. We all started fighting to be the reserve member since the level is too high ( P6 level ) and luckily, I'm the one registered as reserve before this, hehe! Which means as long as I make sure all of them safe and sound, I need not to take part in that competition ;P

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Heard things that upset me, which I didnt expect some people could be that different from what I see. It's rather disturbing to know certain facts anyway, no wonder people always say that being ignorant of the facts would be much better at times. It struck me how people could behave when problems arise, or maybe when they have been like that all the way, just that what I know is far too little from the actual picture?

However it's too early to judge a book by its cover, should have understand them more before I judge them right? As time goes by I realised that I actually gained something from what I experienced, even though in fact I couldnt really describe what have I learnt so far. Certain people act in the way which I disagree of, however, every single person has their way of handling things and facing people around them which I have no rights to interfere with. Even me myself also couldnt guarantee that every single person around me satisfied with me anyway, and that's the time when I really need people around me to point out what's my mistake, and remind me about my wrongdoings.

Every person has different background behind them and it's not easy to place a final judgement by their single act, or from what we see so far. Maybe the reasoning, and the story behind that particular person is strong enough to support any things that he/ she did, or going to do.

It's rather annoying to be placed with the blames when you feel that you were actually doing the right thing at the right time, or even when you're being unaware of the consequences of doing it. But does that mean that act is done on purpose? Does that represents irresponsiblity? No one is perfect alright? It's funny when some people blasted at you on things that they're actually doing it.

Okay I need to chill myself down now~ >.<

Holidays please?

2008-09-10T19:08:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I'd just need a big warm hug :)

If you were to ask me about my recent life, I'd reply 'so far so good', nothing that really impressed me, and at the meantime nothing get on my nerves ( as yet ). Things would be slightly different as Progress Test is coming real soon and I'm really far behind >.< epp!

I have piles of work awaiting me, made up of daily stuffs eg. settling the exam registration, graduation ceremony payment, and my MORAL studies result!! Okay it really irritates me when talking about this moral studies result. It's already after almost 2 months and the every related parties are delaying and pushing us around with the same old excuse. What the heck. Everytime when we went to the financial office they'll be giving us the same answer : 'your lecturer hasnt give us the result...blah blah blah...go find your lecturer' and finding HIM is not an easy task. His phone would always be switched off, okay maybe not always, but the thing is I could managed to get him only ONCE, which is the 1st time when I asked for my result.

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Glad to see some of our friends actually came to attend law or costing class, especially my clossies! Hee! :) It really reminds me of the times when we sit together. And I feel glad to see some of them working really hard for their current papers, which somehow I should feel ashamed for myself for taking a lot of things for granted :(

Life is getting busier and more hectic now, with stress level increasing gradually especially during certain class :P Since the number of students is patheticly little, each and every of us has a higher chance of being called up for questions and I certainly dun like tht idea of being "ummm...." with a blushed face when I dunno how to answer those questions. Lol.

Hmm thinking of the graduation ceremony, what came to my mind when I first heard of it is something like prom night. Lol. Hahaha xD Sorry for being so desperate to attend such event, hehe! In fact I never got the chance to attend the prom night in my high school life since it's only held for the Form6 graduates ( I think ). So a bit tad disappointed when I got to know that we actually hafta wear those kinda attire ( which we are supposed to pay 35 bucks for it and get nothing eventually ). *prom night dream smashed* *sniff sniff*

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Sometimes just wondering am I on the right track. When things go on as it is without anything that really capable of bringing up my interest to life, or lighten up my days, should I just sit down and think what is the thing that I actually needed / wanted most? Emo-ness comes out of nowhere sometimes. Maybe I need some changes. In other words, I feel like slacking away with rests, travelling, shopping or anything other that college life.

Sounds like I have been requesting for rest and holidays all the time :D hee!

Friendship Never Ends

2008-09-01T11:09:00.013+08:00

Hello Hello People ~! ;)

Been abandoning my blog for quite some time due to my laziness and busy with my Progress Test 1, teehee! :P Currently 'lazy' mode on, what to do eh? Hee!

So much I have been planning to blog about and it's so looooooong overdue now and somehow lost the point of blogging it out anymore =/ Anyways, what I'm gonna blog today will never be 'overdue' ;)

Few weeks after the result came out, and it felt like it has been ages since I last met my clossies ( in college ),

I miss you guys a lot!! :(

Do-Re-Mi-Fa-So, with Kak's finger xD

Somehow I love this picture very much :)

I miss them so so much, miss the fun, jokes, hapiness, lame-ness at times, and the sharing of problems between us. Kept recalling the time when we 1st knew each other, not so close, I actually felt quite awkward when talking with them ( with my lousy english, epp! ) That's the reason why I always kept quiet when you guys first knew me, hehe!

As time goes by we got closer to each other, and our friendship bond became stronger :)

Totally miss da time when we hangout together, went Genting, birthday celebration etc etc, will never forget all the laughter and happiness we shared~! ;)

This is the year we actually get closer than ever to each other and I treasure those happy time most!

Never would have thought I'll meet such great friends after my high school life and yet these girls changed my perception, totally :) In fact I dun really understand why I have such perception though, to be honest. Maybe just the lack of trust I have to this world, due to a series of incidents that happened before, those incidents struck me, and I got to learn how not to trust people that easily.

I can't say I totally understand each and every of them, yet they have been, they are, and they will still be my clossies~! ;) ~* Each happening has their own meaning behind, for us to learn from it, and get stronger by getting through all those obstacles. At times it might be hard, yet no matter what happen there'll always be friends around to support you whenever you fall :)

Thanks for being there to help and care for me whenver I need you guys, you all are GREAT, teehee! :D

Do remember there'll always be full support from me alryte! Hee! ;D

Tagged By Joey

2008-08-31T11:10:00.001+08:00

Instructions:

Remove one question from below and add in your own question,make it a total 20 questions.Then tag 8 people from your list.List them out at the end of the post.Notify them that they have been tagged.

1. At what age you wish to marry?

Hmm..28 would be a nice age for me to get married ;)

2. Are you straight?

Duh!

3. Do you smoke?

Nope~! I hate those smell

4. What are the things you interest now?

A lot, watching tv, online, sleeping, and perhaps have some precious time with my family and clossies :)

5. List out two things that you'd like to do now?

Travelling ( Japan, Switzerland, Italy, Sepanyol, Korea, etc etc etc ) I'm not greedy, this alone will do ;P

6. How old are you?

Currently 19~

7. What is the latest thing you bought with your own money?

Errmm? Can't remember >.<

8. Do you believe in love at first sight ?

Used not to believe in it but somehow my perception changed ( a bit )

9. Currently into?

Lazy-ing, Online :D

10. Getting married is going to heaven or grave?

Depend on who you marry with :)

11. How many kids do you want?

Nope~ That's like too far away from now

12. Are you in love?

Nope~

13. Where is the latest restaurant you have dinner?

Cant remember as well~ >.<

14. Name the latest book you bought?

Testing my memory power is it?? Cant remember >.<

15. Do you believe in open book test?

??????

16. Single or Attached?

Single! :)

17. Name the first person that comes into your mind now.

Not gonna name it here ;)

18. The most exciting place you want to go?

Italy? As long as I can travel ! ;D

19. Which quality is more important in a lover. Looks or personality?

Personality~ I think whoever that answer this would choose personality

20. What will you do if the world is coming to an end?

Most probably spend the time left with my family :)

Tag

Anyone who feel like doing it ;)

Of what I think

2008-08-09T09:31:00.013+08:00

A very good place for vacation :)

Just thought of updating my blog, even though I dun really have the idea what am I going to blog about, so it'll be a very random post ~ Talked about vacations with my mom and yeah, I'm so desperate for it now =/ It has been years since I last went to a beach I guess? Anyways, I love the breeze but I dun really fond of the sun :P

Been getting lazier and lazier nowadays, with piles of homeworks awaiting and a lot of catching-up to do yet I'm slacking + resting almost all the time. I dunno why I just have the feeling of I'm very free, perhaps it's because of the timetable, which most of the time I have only a 3-hour-class everyday :) Thus, more movies, dramas, chit-chatting and time-wasting~

Talking about movies, there're loads of upcoming movies which I'm quite interested in, i.e. Meet Dave, 21, WALL-E etc.etc. Any reviews or comments from anyone who already watched any of them? :)

It's already August. Time flies! *for years I have been saying the same thing

Anyways, it's quite surprising to discover that more and more of my ex-school mates are studying at the same college as I do, and this added more fun to my life :) At least I will somehow found that warm feeling when I meet someone from my high school, weird huh? I found it hard to describe that feeling, but owh well, as long as I feel happy bout it is alryte, ryte? ;)

It has been years since I last swimming :(

I realized that I have experienced a lot in this 1-year-plus duration. Way much than I have experienced in my high school, no kidding. Maybe things and people get more complicated nowadays, or maybe I have been too childish or naive, to realize anything in my high school life. *shrugs* There're just so many things going on and on, life pushes you around without you yourself realizing how far it has already pushed you.

There're times when things happened, it's really hard to judge. Different people different perspectives, and you have to think wisely before commenting, or giving your piece of advice, to avoid things went worse and eventually, who knows what will actually happen.

There's once I said I wished 'world peace', and a friend of mine said this sounds fake. Yeah, I totally agree too. Do you think there'll be world peace, like seriously ? I know it sounds so sarcastic, but well, that's the truth anyway.

Sometimes I think I shouldn't give up hopes of any kind too easily, as there're so many people struggling, even for their last breath at some corner of this world. At times I just feel like giving up on every single thing, 'cause I just couldn't take it anymore.

Just like my backache :( Feel like giving up on it sometimes, especially when it aches like someone has just twisted my spine :( Thank god I still can drive back safe and sound on that day :D hee!

Oh-so-romantic ;)

Just feel like having a relaxing weekend by now :)

Not to think too much, not to worry too much.

Can I ?

Happy Birthday Gurls~

2008-08-03T09:02:00.023+08:00

Been busy these few weeks, so now only I get the chance to blog :) hee~! If I got spare time I'd choose to sleep more, or perhaps watch some dramas instead of blogging, lol! I used to love blogging very much but now the enthusiasism seems fading, typical me! :P

2 of my clossies had their birthday in the same week, so yeah, this post will mainly be a post about the celebation of their birthday :)

29/07/2008

Went Sunway Pyramid again ( where else can we go eh? ) after class to get presents for Siewlin's upcoming b-day~* :)

Me, Cath, Emiko and Manoj went there together, we girls busy choosing presents inside this Etude House, while Manoj waiting for us outside the shop, for almost an hour plus ( or more? ) I lost count of time but it has been quite long =X Pity him, lol~

Pink pink pink~*

Me and Emiko got something for ourselves as well from that shop :P teehee~!

Fancy the cute lil' make-up products and nice scent of the products, and the price is okayy as well~

30/07/2008

Siewlin's birthday on this day, and well, I suggested that we acted like we have forgotten about her birthday ( like so mean ryt? lol~ ) To give her a big surprise marr ;)

Anyway we gave her the birthday present during class and wished her happy birthday~

They all went Pyramid for lunch after the celebration of her birthday, but sadly I couldnt join them :( anyways, hope Siewlin enjoyed her b-day! ~*

02/08/2008

It'c Cath's b-day and Manoj has been planning to give her a surprise b-day @ Jack's Place :) hehe! Well, can see that he's really working hard on this plan and made all his attempt to make sure that this plan really works, in order to give Cath a BIG surprise :) hehe!

So all 17 ( or more? ) of us, including cath's friends, came early and we all waited inside Jack's Place for the b-day girl's arrival~

Finally she arrived, and she looked surprised to see all of us here, which is GOOD~ hehe! The surprise b-day party worked! :D

The day before this Emiko and Steff suggested that we pretend to ask her out at around 4pm @ 1u to celebrate her b-day, so that Cath wont suspect anything :) hehe! So yah, Cath thought she'll only be meeting us at 4pm ;P

Pussy Foot

Of which they made so much of fun with that name xD

Carafe

sounds nice eh?

It's actually a big bottle of fruit juice xD

Steff making a seducing pose with a cherry :P

In between we hav lots of fun and laughing all the way like mad :P

Still smilling at the thought of those scenes and funny jokes even after a few hours~Gosh! It's fun hanging out wif them :) And heyy I love those funny video clips xD

The Lamb Chop that I ordered

The food there was so-so, I still prefer the Lamb Chop from The Ship~ Anyways the place's quite romantic ( if we werent there ) Cuz we were sooooooooo noisy, like seriously =X

The 2nd surprise came some time afterwards :)

Cute lil' baby ( Jiash's nephew! )

So uber cute ryt? We girls went "Awwwwwwwww" and "Omg" went the baby was here~ He's so chubby and cute! :D To be exact I dun really like babies, but the baby was really CUTE !~* As long as you don't ask me to take care of babies, I'm okay wif them :D They're super cute when they laugh~!

Hello hello cutie~! ;D

Lil' baby got interested wif cath's b-day present ~

We were practically taking pictures of him NON-STOP soon after he came in :P

Sounds scary huh? Like paparazzi only xD

Awwwwwwwwwwww ;)

Shy dy~ hehe!

We spent like almost 3 hours in Jack's Place, busy eating and chit-chatting ( and laughing )~ I laughed until my stomach aching dy, lol~

After lunch some of them went back, and the rest of us just walk around.

Candid shot~* by Joseph

We took picture at the same spot before :P

From left : Amily, Liang Fang, Gaya, Cath, Aruna, Me, Emiko and Siewlin :)

* Hopefully I didnt spell wrongly

Pictures of the Day

Our pretty b-day gurl

AND

Sleepy lil' baby :D

p.s. Something which I think it's very true ( as said by Ms.Pushpa ), people will always focus on the baby rather than the mother ryte after the mother delivered the baby~ Which is so cham for those mom :(

To Cath =)

2008-08-02T20:26:00.007+08:00

Pretty Birthday Gurl looks happy ;D

A surprise b-day party organised by Manoj to Cath today @ Jack's Place =)

Happy Birthday Cath~!*

Hope you really had a big surprise today :)

Much Of Loves! ;D

Stay pretty and happy always ayte! *huggies*

Feeling tired now, will blog abt it tmr (Maybe?)

*yawns*

Tata~*! ;P

Untitled

2008-07-26T15:15:00.002+08:00

Somehow I lost myself when I was persuing certain things in the past.

Things that I thought I should have go after.

Things that I thought it would be important to myself.

Somehow things didn't go in the way it should have been.

Shouldnt have place too much hope after all.

Of Dark Knight and My Lame-ness

2008-07-22T19:05:00.007+08:00

This is what I get after putting it into the washing machine T___T

*regret*

Do you guys have any idea of what it is actually? =X

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Went for "Journey To The Center Of The Earth" and "The Dark Knight" recently and both of them are GOOD, especially The Dark Knight, awwwesomee ;) It's really good in the sense that it is one of the movies that actually make people THINK ( okay maybe just for me ) about what kinda message they wanna bring out through this movie :)

This one would be greater if you watch the 3D version =)

*if you dont mind paying double price for it ;P

p.s.Christian Bale is sooooooooooo good looking :D Hee!

*spoiler warning : don't read the following paragraphs if you gonna watch this movie ayte :)

This movie is awwwwesome!! I dun mind watching it again, so yah, anyone wanna watch it? I just tag along lar, haha =D

At first I tho batman is gonna die ler *Ding's fault* xD But I really feel sorry for him, I meant, Batman :(

Can you imagine how much of burden lying on his shoulder yet he cant just left it? Poor thing =(

Heath Ledger ( The Joker ) and Aaron Eckhart ( Two-Face ) are superb actors, like seriously! Especially Heath Ledger!! Man he's so good!! No doubt I have expected much more when I heard so much of compliments about this movie, yet it didnt disappoint me. In fact, I actually thought of a lot of stuffs after the movie i.e. about human nature and stuffs like that. Joker thought that people would actually ended up in fear / being selfish and kill each other before they were killed. Of which I think people would actually act in that way ( with kill-them-before-they-kill-us thought ) in reality. There're just so many things that we wont know until the last minute, ryte?

he’s a deadly, dangerous, semi-suicidal psychopath who also happens to be brilliant

I love the parts when the Joker appeared! =) And the way he said : Why so serious? and Let's put a smile on that face. It really made the hair at the back of ppl's neck stands =S Can you imagine when he said that to you? You will NEVER know what he gonna do next. Owh ya and the part when he said sth about people get scared and panic when he's to bomb the hospital instead of the army, they panic just because it's NOT in their plan. People plan a lot, and whenever things don't go as what they planned, they get panicked and everything goes haywire.

Scary though, when I thought of his expression when he retold how he get those scars on his face =X I meant, not scary as in his expression or whatsoever, it's the unpredictable acts that he's gonna do. *btw there's two version? =X or it's that he's just merely creating stories? That part I dun really understand though

And not to forget about Aaron Eckhart ( Two-Face). When a good man just turn into someone so cruel and full of hatred feelings deep within him right after the death of her fiancee. Is it his true nature underneath his decent face? ( though he became two-face after that because of joker ) Or he's merely pursuing justice in another way?

It's so shocking when someone's characteristics could be totally distorted in just that one incident, in that one day, in that one change of mindset.

Anyways, the two-face made me went 'urhhh-oh-my-god' with hands clasped on my mouth :( *I actually did that almost all the time during the movie* So scary weyy, with the eyeball bulging outwards like tht >.< So O-M-G.

Okay I have been talking so much on it. And I still have more to talk! :P I think I dreamt of one of the scene before =X Seriously. Although not exactly the same but something like that which made me kinda shocked at the time I watched it 'cause I had the dream so long time ago- before I knew this movie is coming out. Cath said I can become the producer of movie ady xD *proud* hahahahaha~! Lol.

*end of spoiler* :D

Some said boring but some said it's superb *and yah, including me! ;) hehe!

I'm soooo gonna watch it again. Oh ya, and the Kung Fu Panda which I wanna watch again :)

Waiting for the WALL-E movie ~* Awwwwww it's uber cute don't you think so *melts*

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Gonna settle the moral thingy tmr perhaps, hopefully it'll be alright *sighs*

Today I was telling my friend not to give so much of attention on moral 'cause it's nothing much and as long as he did the course and do whatever the requirement he'll savely obtain a P.

(vague recap)

Me : Moral nothing one lar, just do the course work can pass dy.

Him : Huh yameh? Meant no need to study?

Me : Yeah no need to study, just tembak. Very easy one.

Him and his friend : But you failed worr....?

Me : ...........*oh-so-stupid*

*I forgot that I failed my moral*

Ishhhhk !!!!

Rants rants rants.

2008-07-18T20:44:00.008+08:00

My recent life is not going on that well.

*pause*

In fact it has been very bad for me.

*pause again*

Life sucks man. T_________T

*sighs*

Quite a few things that happened this few days and I dunno where to start now =X

Hmm, just talk about the 'driving on my own' plan, which has been 'terminated' so far due to my lousy driving skill and lack of concentration =(

At 1st my dad planned to let me drive on my own to college back and forth from this week onwards, and just right before Monday he told me that he'll just continue following me. Felt slightly disaapointed, I nodded. ( Actually deep inside I expected that ady )

2nd time is on the Wednesday. He was planning to let me drive to college on my own on Thursday since my Friday class ends at 6pm, while my bro and sis' class ends at almost the same time as well. Knowing the traffic jam that we all would suffer if he fetch either of us first, he actually considering to let me drive to college. So, Thursday would be the 'trial'. Guess what? Right before I going to sleep he came upstairs and told me he'll just tag along on Thursday. I burst out laughing okay =X Well you might think that something is wrong elsewhere with me BUT that kinda of response from him was what I expected too =) No disappointment this time.

Anyway, the worse thing 'officially' started on Thursday whereby my relationship with my dad became very, very sour onwards. ( In fact I was having a very bad mood since I-dunno-when, and I could get irritated VERY easily ) I 'overlooked' a bike and nearly bang it :( Sounds scary eh? I'm sure that I looked left and right before I drove out of the junction, BUT I didnt see that bike :( Maybe it's dark ( that time was just 6am sth ) or something blocked him or whatsoever, I get scolded like sh*t after that *sighs* Not to mention that I forgot to make sure my house gate closed properly before I drove off-and I got it from my dad as well. He started picking on my mistakes and everything I did seemed wrong in his eyes. EVERYTHING okayyy? I kept quiet all the way from my house to college though deep inside I was really really angry.

Ever since I started driving last year, NOTHING I did would satisfy him.

Bah! I know things that he did is for my own good, but I'm in a real bad mood now, so just let me rant on these kayyy? =(

Well, the cold war between me and my dad begun since then, with both of us treating each other coldly :( I didnt wanna make the first move. I'm always not the one who make the first move. Anyway he kept quiet all the way when I drove to college. For the whole journey of around 40 mins there was only the sound of car engine.

I started 'fight' back this evening, whereby I have mistaken the place he asked me to wait for him, and he got uber angry because he has to rush to fetch my bro and sis. Not totally my fault though. Communication breakdown. And so I fighted back by pointing that he's not giving instructions properly blah blah blah. My patience and anger reached the boiling point and I couldnt just keep quiet anymore. He got very angry 'cause I argued back. Normally I would just keep quiet. But I didnt overdo it, didnt say anything bad or whatsoever, I merely protested that I wasnt the one who shud be blamed. Who knows if I get thrown out of the car after that. I dun wanna walk all the way back to Kepong kay :D

Rants rants rants.

Proudly present to you my moral studies' result....

.....

...

.....

An effin' F

I felt so so so upset =(

even though I didnt really take moral seriously.

even though I cant really believe it.

BUT

I hafta re-do it if that's really my result kay? *dammit*

Moral studies isnt that easy kay?

What the heck.

*sighs*

T_______T

Why it just have to go this way? =(

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My new cutie a.k.a 'mui tan xi' ( kindly pronounce it in cantonese :D )

It's from Totoro if I'm not mistaken =)

Cute eh? =)

A lil' present from my sis :D

Evidence of Ding torturing my cutie =(

Beat him for me =P

hehehe~

I need to chill and relax, to get away from all these...

Hoping things will go back on track

or at least just dont be that bad for me can?

*sighs*

So tired of all these, including those involving my personal life.

p.s. Got a big surprise yesterday :D It feels good to meet someone you really know in the same college =) Heyy, if you so happened to be reading this, a BIG thank youuuuu kay ;) Really happy to see you there! And hope to see ya real soon!~* :D

p.p.s. Evelyn, I updated it ady, hehe~! :D See till now also I havent change my blog skin :P

Of memories & random stuffs

2008-07-10T13:41:00.026+08:00

- Just wanna be myself -

There are certain things that I have not prepared to face so soon, perhaps. I may still need some time for myself, and I'm trying my level best to achieve it :)

Emo-ness strikes sometimes, and I'm glad that there're friends who willing to listen to my crappings and console me :P Thanks a lot ya =)

( p.s. thanks for the 'someone' doc as well :D That's a really nice one )

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Hmm hmm, finally my new sem started dy and so far I'm still...quite free :P

Okayy lar there's something basic that I have forgotten and I got rather irritated by myself when doing those class exercise and so forth =( *sighs* Plus I'm having Law this sem, and I'm pretty fear of it, due to the bulk information that we have to 'swallow' ( not 'absorb' xD ) Why must we have at least a theory paper each sem eh? *sniff*

What the point of forcing us to memorize so much at a time huh? *By now I ady forgot T5 :P

There's something that I'm sooooooo DISSATISFIED. The timetable. A 3-hours-class per day and I have to travel all the way from Kepong to Sunway. Sheer waste of petrol and time. Although I was rather delighted when I 1st saw the timetable ( cuz I expected our class to end at night, or that it'll be packed with classes, according to rumours :D )

AND one of the lecturer *double sighs* I just got so ANNOYED with that teaching method of this lecturer, but too bad, she's the only one for this particular subject and there's no option but to continue bearing with her *triple sighs*

This is seriously testing my patience. Half a year weyyyyyyyyyy :(

Anywaysss...went to this vegetarian restaurant with my DAD at 1 U :)

Awwwwwwesome interior design ! ;)

I can see myself in the mirror~ :P

Fish head Bihun

Mung bean soup!!! Me Love :D

( p.s. Yiyi I lazy to cook that worr, next time we go there and eat larr xD hahhaha )

Green Tea~* Love it! =)

Another outing with my friends the saturday before my new sem started @ Mid Valley~;)

Cai See and Me =)

We 'dumped' the guys at Chilli's and went jalan - jalan ourselves at Gardens xD~

Got so interested with their designs and we went and 'observed' the streams ( those at the back of Cai See :P )

She's a very sweet and nice gurl =)

Miss you loads~*!

Kai Wen had to carry our bags since both of us were so slow ( to went back from Gardens to Chilli's to meet up with them ) ;P

Both of us refused to take it back and kai wen ended up carrying it all the way in the mall :P hehehe~ I know I very mean lar, BUT i discovered something also, which is- kai wen's so gentleman xD

*snaps*

In the washroom at Gardens.

This picture made him looked 'one-eyed' hahaha xP~!

Went for 'Get Smart' at Jusco Kepong, and I watched it for the 2nd time. Not bad though, I discovered, or to say I noticed some parts that I didnt really pay attention to when I watched it for the 1st time :) hehe

Talking about movie...I'm so looking forward to watch this movie >>

The Dark Knight

This movie looks awesome :) ~*

My baby milo T-shirt =D

Cutieeee~*

my doggie outside my house :P

Owh I miss those in this picture sooooooo much.

And this.

I don't think we could ever gather back as it was =(

Anyways, still miss you guys and the time we shared a lot!! =)

p.s. crappy connection and something went wrong with my computer :( *sniff*

100 'sorry's

2008-07-06T16:38:00.004+08:00

sorry.

今天期中考，学校早一点放学，我打了通电话给他。：喂，我今天比较早放学，你来载我回家好不好？

：好，等我五分钟。

：五分钟？我学校就在你家旁边耶。

：我总要打扮一下啊。

：好啦，快一点喔。

下午2：00，太阳大的让我有种冲动想喷鼻血，我站在树荫下挥动着手，虽然没凉到哪里去，但是煽总比不煽好。五分钟过了，他还没来，我看看手表，有点不高兴，十分钟过了，他还没到..，该不会出了什么事吧？呸呸呸...乌鸦嘴，十五分钟过了，他总算到了。

：怎么这么慢？他一副无所谓的样子说

：没啊，看个电视。

什么？看个电视？你要不要顺便睡个觉洗个澡吃个饭再来？

我没有说话，没有拿安全帽，没有上车的瞪着他。

：对不起。这是他第一次对我说对不起，他是一个很大男人主义，爱面子的男生，所以他从不像女生低头说对不起，我看着他，好吧，似乎面有惭色，我带上安全帽，让他载我回家。

他总是这样，从来不解释，不争论，不跟我吵架，只跟我说对不起，有些事，不是一句对不起就能解决的，但是他都跟我道歉了，我也就没再追究下去，他说，我是第一个让他说对不起的女生。

认错需要很大的勇气，但是他从来都没有改进他的错误，对不起反而变成一种打发我的话。

在他说第59次对不起时，我流着泪，低下头说：你不要再跟我说对不起了，如果你无法改变，就不要让我给你一次又一次的机会，相信你会改变。他轻轻的拥着我，说了第60句对不起。虽然如此，他还是没有改变，不做任何的解释，我开始怀疑他是不是有事瞒着我。

：你最近怎么了？

：没有啊。

：那你为什么心情不好？

：没有啊。

：又是没有啊，你除了这句话以外没有别的吗？你知不知道我很担心，很没有安全感，你到底有没有当我是你女朋友？

：...对不起。

：我不要听你说对不起。我挂了电话，他也没有打来，他根本就不在乎我，也许，我们该结束ㄌ..........这是他说的第99句对不起....。

从那天开始，我再也没有找过他，他也没有打电话给我，有时候，我会接到一通无声的电话，但是我喂了几声，就挂了，有一种直觉是他，但是他为什么都不说话？一个月之后，我按奈不住思念的心情决定到他学校找他，我在教室外东张西望的，就是没有看到他的人影，我随便抓了一个男生来问。：同学，请问一下，梦伟今天有来吗？：他休学了。

：啊？为什么？什么时候的事？

：他已经一个月没来了。

：...喔..谢谢。

一个月..一个月没来，怎么会呢？我跌跌撞撞的回到家..拨他的手机：您的电话已经为您转到语音信箱，请在嘟一声...。我挂了电话，打到他家，响了好久都没有人接，怎么会？全家移民吗？他仿佛是从这世界上消失了一样，没有一点痕迹。他该不会另结新欢了吧？我开始胡思乱想，我找不到他..，

正当我烦恼的时候，电话突然响了，是阿立打来的，他是梦伟的死党也是我的好友。：喂，你还在干嘛啊？：什么？：伟在医院啦。

：真的？他怎么了？

：没有啦，他在○○医院，就是你上次住的那一家。

：我马上去。我立刻用我出生以来最大的速度飙到那家医院，在医院看到了他和妈妈，我向他们问了他在哪一间病房之后，就急忙的飞奔而去。他躺在床上，眼睛看着我，没有说话，没有起床，一动也不动的。

：喂，你怎么了？为什么不通知我呢？他没有回答我，只是一直用同样的眼神看着我。

：回答我啊，你为什么不说话？他眼角留下了一滴泪，身体仿佛用了最大的力气，牵动着嘴角

：...对不起...。说完，他闭上了眼睛。

：喂，你别装了好不好，为什么要说对不起，我不要你说对不起啊，你起来啊，回答我啊。我哭倒在他床边，拉着他的衣服哭喊着

：你为什么要说对不起，连说服我的理由都没有？我不会原谅你，你起来啊，你说对不起没有用啊，你不起来我这辈子都不会原谅你，我求求你....睁开眼睛啊...。

这是他说的一百句对不起...一群医生和护士拉开我，开始抢救他，我全身没有力气再站起来，我的头脑一片空白，眼前一片漆黑..。

他没有离开这个世界，只是我永远都无法触摸到他，但他有时也会在我的梦中出现，告诉我他过的好不好。他还是陪着我，还是活着，在我心里，他依然如昔，还是会笑着叫我咏熙，叫我老婆，只是..他不再对我说对不起了...。过了几个月，他妈妈来找我，给了我一个盒子，里面装的，是一百张照片，每一张照片的背面，都写着它让我生气的事情。第一次对不起，老婆，我今天不是故意迟到的，我也知道理由很烂，但是我真的不忍心说实话，我在出门前突然心脏绞痛，但是我已经尽量赶了，原谅我好吗？

第二次对不起?老婆，我..........第三次对不起，老婆，我...第一百次对不起，老婆，我不是狠心要丢下你，只是上帝似乎不给我这个机会让我爱你一辈子，为你带上戒指，你是我第一个让我说对不起的女孩，也是我第一个想共度一生的女孩，原谅我不能给你幸福，我会化作天使，守护着你，看着你得到幸福，答应我，别哭，我不要看到你为了我憔悴流泪的样子，我爱你。--梦伟

我怎么可能不哭，你的要求太严苛了，最后一张照片，是他在医院理拍的，照片上他笑的很灿烂，他变的好瘦，脸色好苍白，但是他还是露出了笑容，拍这第一百张照片。在他最虚弱罪痛苦的时候，我没有陪着他。对不起。我抱着他的照片，泪流不止！！

选择相信？

2008-07-06T10:19:00.004+08:00

Am I on my own?

最近总是在上一秒觉得困倦，下一秒一躺在床上的时候却又翻来覆去地睡不着。不想想太多，可是思绪仍旧围绕在周围所发生的事，那些过去，以及曾经的伤痛。夜阑人静的时候，人都是沉默而抑郁的么？

想到最近看的戏，结局都是没有想象中的完美。就因为在现实的世界里鲜少会有完美的大结局，因此多少渴求在虚幻的剧情里寻求那丝希望。

有的人说：你看起来真的好坚强，这么快就可以快快乐乐的生活了。

是吗？那是好事吧。或许是在事情还没发生的时候已隐约预见如此的结果，或许是早就已经伤痕累累了。瑟静的深夜里，偶然的思绪被带到昔日的伤痛时，才发现原来自己是那么的不堪一击。曾经想把过去的哀痛深深的埋起来，奢望着善忘自己很快就将它们遗忘。忙碌的日子里，我的确将它们淡忘，模糊了，就连轮廓也渐渐的，看不清了。偶然，锐利的思绪一不小心在同一个伤疤上划上一小刀时，脆弱的伤疤立即破裂。当日埋藏的地点丝毫不误的记得。那样的清晰。深深的质疑着，我是不是真的完全复原了。

就因为复原了，所以很多事都不再介怀了不是么？就因为复原了，所以存在与否已经不再是一个问题了不是么？就因为复原了，所以很多往事已然淡忘。揪紧的心，疼痛得快让人窒息。是因为往事不堪回首，所以哀伤？

不再介怀是事实，没有牵挂亦是事实。

只是不想再去触碰那依然脆弱的伤痕。只是不愿记起往日的伤痛。只是不敢再去随心所欲的在感情上推心置腹。很多窝心的话语在瞬间蜕变成丑恶的谎言，冷峻的事实彷佛一把锐利的尖刀直刺内心最脆弱处。开始害怕相信会有真心。战战兢兢的心情。

想平静的过好生活。相信着总有一天伤痕会结痂。相信总有一天伤疤只会是一道伤疤。选择相信身边真诚的友谊与亲情。

Rojak

2008-07-04T18:58:00.004+08:00

This will be a rojak post whereby I mix all those tiny tiny things in this one whole post :D *reminds me of SS15's rojak* Okay let's don't talk about food now =(

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Finally I have made my decision not to take up ICAEW, hence I choose not to attend the interview as well :D ( Lazy larrrr wanna go there for interview while I dy confirm tht I wont be taking the course ;P ) I still wanna be lazy for two more years :P And with my english level do you seriously think I can go out and work? =="

Anyway, good luck to Jovan and Wei Chian, whom I knew so far they decided to take ICAEW, and good luck to Ding, Liyun and Ethan as well in their interviews ;)

Watched Hancock on the 3rd of July after our Law class, (yep I'm taking Law this semester and hopefully I wont die xD ) 13 of us ( I think) went for this movie together and we took the whole row :D hehe~ The storyline was okayy lar, it wasnt as good as I expected anyway. I expected it to be..hmm..more action-packed, and I dun really like the ending whereby the main actor and actress cannot be together for the rest of their life =(

Why the ending of the movies nowadays like tht one eh? The incredible hulk also =( I love happy ending :) Even though in reality there would hardly be any happy ending. To not be pessimistic, but just to be realistic. Normally we would expect things to go our way, yet in fact someting would just go wrong somewhere and all the wishes, dreams and hopes will be just a big big impossible. I meant, come on, it would be a rare case if everything in your life ( even in ONE particular day ) just follow the way you want it to be ryte?

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Somehow my dad's considering to let me drive to college. Finallyyyyyy :D

It's not 'implemented' yet but at least I MIGHT have the chance of driving on my own ( Gosh I feel so nervous =X ) When I wasnt given the chance to drive on my own I was so looking forward to tht and now, I kinda wish someone can fetch me everytime :P I'm so forgetful and clumsy, I might just forgot to lock my car, or forgot where I parked my car whatsoever...And someone please save me okay when I'm in any trouble? Okay okay? Thank you xD hehehe~! And book one parking place for me ar if you can, thank you so much :D ( Planning for my future, hahaha! )

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The new semester just started few days ago and so far it's okayy...I miss Ms.Shanta and Mr.Jay =( Wondering when we got the chance to be taught by them again? :) I'm taking law, performance management and tax this sem~! Yiyi I'm taking LAW lerr~~~*sniff sniff* We'll never get to escape from the fate of studying this subject, lol~ Let's pray I wont die okay? xD hehe~

Okay I think I somehow forgot what I wanna blog about =( Maybe I will get Alzheimer's disease when I'm old *gasp* I hafta really pray hard so that I wont get it *cries* =(

To choose or not to choose?

2008-06-30T20:39:00.002+08:00

Receive a call from Sunway College few days back, well actually I received 2 calls but the first time I was in cinema and the second time I was driving so I didnt pick up - and I ignored, or to say I totally forgot about it later on, thinking it might be some wrong phone calls.

When Ding asked me whether I received any calls from Sunway College only I got to know who's the one calling me twice and what they called me for, i.e. to ask me whether I will be able to make it for a talk by BDO Binder and Deloitte regarding ICAEW.

Called them on the next day and got the details of the talk, including the requirement to dress formally on the day itself and prepare our resume for both of the firms. At that point of time the information I get regarding ICAEW is pathetically little, since I wasn't paying much attention when Mr.Jay mentioned that earlier in our class, thinking that it would be irrelevant to me. ( Yeah so this type of attitude is killing me ) Anyway, I have never been for any interviews before and never in my life ( so far ) prepare a resume / CV. Owh well, this means that I have to learn how to write a resume then :P

Preparing a resume is a tedious and a you-wont-feel-like-doing-it-again-work for me ==" Took me whole Sunday to get it done, and I didnt prepare myself for any interviews in advance though I have asked my cousin's opinions and suggestions.

Discussed the pros and cons of studying ICAEW with my parents and my cousin even before I get further information about the course. My cousin asked her ex-boss, who is a council of MIA before, and he said that ICAEW is much well-recognised as there's only a few on them have such qualification compared to ACCA and this will certainly boost my career. And from what I got to know so far, Mr.Jay mentioned similar points as well, whereas some said ICAEW will only be helpful at the starting of our career, the most important thing is our performance at work in future *dilemma*

Went to the briefing today and it sort of changed my mind ( I have not that much of intentions to choose ICAEW before this ) Anyway gotta get more info about the training contract / employment, of which I think it's the agenda BUT that's the thing that they placed less emphasize / didnt mention it at all. Yea I know ICAEW is much better than ACCA as it consists of training and practical experiences, which would an advantage for those who choose that, so what I'm concern is about their contracts.

The pros and cons of ICAEW :

Pros :

- Being able to get better understanding of the subject studied ( especially audit !! =X )
- Can get salary xD ( I'm earning $ , I'm earning $ ! )
- Get to learn more ( in aspect of working environment, social life etc )
- Hmm it's not considered as advantages but they did provide study leave, which is better than none, right?
- It's kinda win-win situation for me actually, 'cause you cant expect people to provide you with RM30,000-40,000 worth financial support for your course fees + salaries for your working without requesting any repayment from you ryte?
- The training contract is for 5 years, which is the same with ACCA ( 2 years of full-time study plus 3 years of working experience )

Cons :

- No life. =="
- I may get lazy and that would be a very bad thing for me
- I have to sacrifice my lovely weekends! *sniff sniff*
- Can I even pass my T8 now?????? *sighs*

Actually everything is just nice, the only thing I'm worrying about is the working part. *sighs* Why working is a MUST ler ?

Undecided.Dilemma...

p.s. People, please give me your suggestions / opinions on which path I shall choose~ =) Thank you so much!

Outing @ 1 Utama

2008-06-26T18:46:00.023+08:00

Shall start my post with these adorable toys *melts* xD ~ Awwwwwww they're UBER cute, arent they? =)

*hearts*

Went 1U with Cath, Steff, Emiko, Siewlin AND Ong. He's da only guy there, haha! Owh well, dunno whether he'll still be willing to tag along after that? xP Miss you gurls sooooooo much!!

Watched The Incredible Hulk, overall it's okay although some parts of the story seemed hanging a bit. So me who don't really know the storyline of The Hulk before this ( hmm I think I had watched it before but it's like so long ago and I couldnt recall any single thing ) watched it with loads of question marks popping in my mind. I love the part when the hulk saved the girl...Awwwww so touching =3

*Haha I know I'm silly, hehehe ;P

Next time I'll check whether my camera's on only then I take picture okay? xD

Candid.

Took sticker photos - yeah 6 of us, including Ong! :D

At sinma xD

-I thought I was smilling? =X-

The sticker photo!! =)

Cath and emiko, who's busy cutting and dividing the sticker photos

Picture, again! :P

Looks nice eh? =)

*Heyy I wasnt ready =(*

My stupid expression >.<

Steff, Emiko, Siewlin

Siewlin curled her hair!! =)

Our very first picture together, hehe!

We looked so garang =="

This one nicer xD teehee~*

Candid. By Ong.

*Getting ready to take picture! *

Now everyone's here ;)

Started snapping random pictures after that

Bear with the blurry pictures cuz everyone's moving around, hehe

Cath also taking video dy ;P

I'm taking picture as well! ;D

At last, everyone targeted at him xP

Went shop around for cosmestics and Ong hafta follow as well :P

Owh I started miss you gurls now =3 hehe!

And and...I love da sticker pictures so much!!~* ;)

Took me 2 days to finish this post =X Lazy me :P

Genting Trip~!

2008-06-24T18:27:00.006+08:00

Group pictures~* =)

-these two pictures stolen from cath's facebook,hehe- =P

Heyy guys sorry for the delay =P and now I'm posting about my Genting trip ;D hehe! Here it goes~

-17th June 2008-

Went Genting with Emiko, Steff, Cath, Manoj, Nikesh, Harish, Vikrum ( Sorry I dunno how to spell his name), Victor, Stefanie, Ong and Joseph. 12 of us in total~! ;)

Reached KL Sentral at around 7.30am, had my breakfast there and met with Joseph at McD. After that they came one by one, and we managed to get the bus tickets at 11am. And luckily, there's 13 seats left, which is just nice! Victor's dad followed along because he had to verify the booking that he made. So 13 seats is just nice for 13 of us ;D

While waiting for the bus, we were chatting and reading magazines at the bookstore nearby.

3 girls in the KL Sentral washroom ;P

*I know I know...we looked ghostly pale =X *

Joseph xD~

Candid shot by emiko :)

-some of the pictures here taken from emiko while some of them taken by me-

Sweet couple =3~*

Another pair xD hahaha~ *runs*

Emiko and me =)

Candid~

Having our lunch at the food court while waiting to check-in

The Kimchi chicken rice I had is very yummy~ Busy eating so didnt take picture of it ;P

The food there's expensive~!! Joseph spent RM22 on curry and naan =X (if I'm not mistaken)

In first world hotel, waiting to check-in.

It's crowded with people~! The whole picture ( use the amount of people above multiple by 7 or 8 ) =X

Mind you, it's just LOW SEASON~!! Can you imagine when it's PEAK season??

- At the outdoor theme park -

Joseph's attempt create mist xD

We Girls~! :)

I looked so =.=

Steff and Me~

I dunno why I have this kinda expression =X

I dun dare to ride this thing =/

In fact after the pirate ship, the spinning cup and the spinner, I couldnt take it anymore =="

I'm soooooooooooooooooo dizzy after that spinning cup @_@

4 Girls ~! ;)

Haiz Siewlin missed the fun dy =(

Cotton candy became a MUST for us after all those rides xD

We all felt better after taking sugary stuffs :)

Especially me~ Hee!

Right after the spinner, when 12 of us were still together...

(just a vague recollection of what happened, not 100% exact)

Me : I feel so dizzy =(

Cath : Yingying you want some sweets anot? It's better if you take some sugar..

Me : It's okay, nvm..

Cath : You sure you don't want?

Me : *nods* it's okay...

Few minutes later, when people all went off for different rides ( some of them went for corkscrew, some of them went for the fun kart )...

Me : Cath?..Do you have any sweets?

Lol. =="

The guys :)

I see no evil, I speak no evil, I hear no evil ;P

The picture I love the most !! x3

As you can see, how misty Genting was

I love the weather!! x3

My Marrybrown Pandan Chicken

Emiko and Me in the cable car. Sorry I lazy to arrange the pictures again

Looks nice isnt it?

Our very first ride, The pirate ship!!

I wonder why Victor's expression went like tht xD

Joseph xD

*see his expression.Lol. :P There's actually a video of it, taken by Emiko

Vikrum and Harish

Now only I remember that I forgot to take picture with Nikesh!! He's UBER cute!! :D

At Indoor theme park

I love the bumper car!! It's FUN ;)

Emiko and Joseph

xP

Ong and Me

The Guys.

Can you find Nikesh?

*tips : Look around Manoj ;P

Many funny things happened on that day :P Firstly, me, emiko and steff planned to return Joseph's jacket which he left in our room. After emiko pressed the door bell, three of us just have the sudden urge to hide and off we ran to hide ourselves at the turning. When we heard them opened the door, we ran further, emiko and steff hiding behind the door, while me hiding at another turning. I joined steff after that, and the clumsy me pushed the door accidentally and it closed with a loud bang. Well they definitely knew where we were and off we ran all the way along the corridor, with me pulling emiko and steff running behind us, holding a cup of maggi mee xD hahaha~! My goodness, I cant stop laughing whenever I think of that!

Btw, the corridor is seriously scary, with no one there! As me and emiko running along the corridor, we have the same feeling of : Something is not right. And I just said " Let's go back" and we just turned around and ran all the way back towards the guys room. And, owh well, steff running with her cup of maggi mee in her hands again xP

We were laughing non-stop when we finally met Ong and Nikesh, who came out and find for us. Then off we went into their room, while Harish and Vikrum were still outside finding for us xD hahaha~! Lol~

After awhile we were exhausted and we girls went back to our own room to sleep. (Nikesh sharing the same room with us, and he having one of the room cards) We've forgotten that he's still at the guys room and we locked the door from inside. All of a sudden we heard someone trying to open the door, followed with a loud bang! The three of us were scared and we were screaming while jumping onto the bed hugging together. Gosh!! Finally we discovered that it's actually Nikesh who opened the door but he couldnt open the door fully cuz it's was locked from inside. Phewww!! Poor Nikesh xD

Right after emiko let Nikesh into the room, she opened another door ( the door for joint rooms) and asked steff to see whether got people there anot. Well, we screamed again ==" I know it's super funny if we look back now, BUT can you imagine when you actually see..... owh well, I dun wanna continue =X

-18th June 2008-

We went Snow World on the next day and it's quite fun! But the time given is so short =( And guess wht, we were given free ice-creams in the snow world~! Yummylicious~* ;)

As a result of taking out my gloves to hold the ice-cream, my fingers went very painful after that ><" And and...my toes too! Even they're wrapped with socks and boots.

Anyway, we met Michelle and Yong Mei there at Genting! Such a coincidence ;)

Bye bye Genting =(

Joseph claimed that he looked handsome in this picture xD

Owh yea, thanks for the belated birthday present ;)

Exhausted. Tired. Lack of sleep *yawns*

Overall it's a GREAT trip :) *loves*

Hope I can join you guys again next time!! ;D

P.S. People, you can read another version / see those pictures from here =)

Girls Day Out

2008-06-24T10:19:00.015+08:00

Temptations~* ;P

Yummylicious chocolates! Given by my cousin :)

Funny Panda~! Look at its expression and it's enough to cheer your day up~;P

I have a question : Why is the Panda's father a duck??? ==" Whilst it's grandfather, great grandfather are also ducks O.o?

Owh well, back to my Day Out with my best friend since primary school, Yee Chien ;)

Miss her loads!! It's weird though, we are studying in the same college for half a year and yet we didnt meet each other, even ONCE!! =X

Decided to go Mid Valley for a walk ( and movie ) the evening right before the day we went out, hehe~ Yee Chien fetched me to ktm station and off we both to Mid Valley.

I have to admit tht I'm reaaally stupid =X It's the second time I take ktm ( 1st time is when I was in form 4, took bus and ktm all the way to Sunway Pyramid ), and I felt so silly asking her so many stupid questions in the ktm >.<

Finally we arrived Mid Valley, safe and sound xD Went makan before we walked around, shopping~* Well, been walking all day long and at the same time our mouth didnt rest as well, haha~ ;P Amazingly ( maybe not tht amazing, just that I didnt really expect that) we can still chat whole day long, right from the moment we met each other till we parted =) Reaaaally enjoyed the time we had together! ;)

Went for this movie >> Get Smart after walking around for few hours,

It's funny !! But at the same time made people goes O.o Lol~

But overall it's great, and Anne Hathaway is HOT ;D

Had some desserts right after the movie at Sweet Chat =)

Snapped this pic for fun xD

Grassjelly with Kiwi!

Pulut hitam with Tong yuen ;)

Yummylicious~* But it's better if you share it with people, if not it'll be too sweet~ =)

My lousy skill xD hahaha

Durian Pancakes!~* :D

Me Love~*! I like this pic's colour =)

Went back by ktm as well, and it's awwwwwwfully packed *gosh!* The first time ever I felt like a sardin fish in the ktm, lol! I should be very grateful that I have a car, or that my dad's willing to fetch me. When the ktm reached a station, people from outside trying hard to squeeze themselves into the ktm while people inside the ktm trying their best to squeeze themselves out of the ktm as well...Pity us who standing in the middle of them! Ishh~ Been pushing back and forth and luckily, we just have to stand that for a few stations *phewwww* Even when we standing without holding the pole, we still wont fall as the ktm's packed with people ==" Just that we have to keep an eye on our bags and pockets.

There were three girls who laughing all the way in the ktm, a woman who was irritated by those people pushing around and pursed her lips with an annoyed expression, and a Malay guy who looked at the people standing around him with mild interest as if we were something amusing (yah including us) =="

Owh well, I shall not take Ktm at those peak time again~! xP

P.s. It's gonna be 1st of July very soon! *gasp* ACCA life! *sighs* I hope I can have more holidays =( But at the same time I miss my friends sooooo much! Hope you guys have a enjoyable holiday too ;)

Tata~* =)

One Day Out - The Curve

2008-06-21T19:28:00.010+08:00

Saturday.Went The Curve dating with my sis today xD ~

Went to this restaurant for lunch : Vivo~*

to live, be alive ;D

We have been walking around looking for the restaurant that suits both of us, as both of us having different tastes and opinions~

Grilled Chicken Panini~* ;)

Eh my phone can take clear pictures! xD

:)

Went for ice-creams right after our lunch :P teehee~

Yummylicious Green Tea Ice-cream~* :D

Well, for this whole day me and my sis just walked around in the curve and Ikano, did some shopping, and owh well, eating ;P hehe~ I used to walk there around alone last time, hehe, but it's definitely better to go shopping with my sis as she always gives great opinion on which clothes / necklaces / shoes etc to choose when I'm undecided ;)

I always spend lots of time on deciding which clothes / necklaces / etc. to choose, and for today I told me sis to wait for me outside the shop for 15 mins, but ended up she waited there for too long and went into the shop instead to rush me xD I nearly forgot that she was waiting me outside the shop when I saw all those accessories and nice clothes ( yah I know I'm a very bad sister :P )

It's has been so long since last time I went shopping? Guess I'd have to say bye to shopping and relaxing after the next sem starts *sighs*

Cute Pendrive =)

Been longing to watch "Kungfu Panda" and at last I got to watch it todayy! Funny movie~ ;) hehe! Go watch it if u havent! ;P

Be strong

2008-06-20T12:20:00.001+08:00

- Dedicated to my sis -

*huggies* =)

Of Gathering & Visiting Showhouse

2008-06-15T16:50:00.011+08:00

Went a German Restaurant near my house with my secondary schoolmates on last Thursday *loves* !! xD Havent been meeting them since long time ago, hehe..

Well, so me as usual, watching movies at home since morning, waiting the clock to strike at 6~ then Kai Wen came to fetch me, with Kak Wah and Si Munn in car dy :D It so happened that all of us wear BLACK without prior notice ;) teehee~ telepathy telepathy heee!! =)

So we went to pick Xing zhuang up nearby Carrefour after fetching me, and off we go makan~! Hehe..I purposely left my stomach for the dinner ler ;D Thanks for Kai wen for being the driver for we four girls ;) hehee~* We all laughing all the way from the beginning till the end, haha you guys really funny lar :) Xing Zhuang changed a lot too ! Take care ya during the protest =/ Lol. All the time we kept chatting and it took us quite some time to make up our minds what to eat :P

I felt so comfortable talking with your guys, a lot! Even when I was merely listening =) Really miss da times when we're in the same class..and heyyy, I just realized something !! The four of us ( 4 girls ) sat beside Kai wen before !! As in sitting beside him during class !! Hahaha~* Si munn sat beside him during form 4 whilst me, xing zhuang and kak wah took turns to sit beside him during form 5 ;D

Si Munn, me and kai wen

Xing zhuang and kak wah =3

I told my parents that I'll be going back at 8 sth but ended went back at 10sth =/ Sorry lerr~ My dad usually sleep quite early if he has no work to do but I think he waited until I came back, walked downstairs, looked at me,only then went back to his room and slept. Ahhh, my dad =3

Hmm, suddenly remembered a personal message of my friend : The Best Lover >> Dad =) *of course it's for girls

Come think of it, it's really true. I'm the very first to agree with it *hands up* xD ~ Well, I know no one will ever loves me like my dad does, and I'm sure that he''ll sacrifice every single thing for me without any doubts =3
I *heart* my dad x3 heeee~* And a very Happyyy Father's Day to him too!!

*******

We didnt celebrate Father's Day today actually, I just did a card for him..and owh well..it's too ugly to be presented here ;P

Went to have a look at the show house near my house today and it's really awesome!!! How nice if I can stay there *awwww...*

I'll take this room !!! xD ~

Big dressing room~ I waaaaaaant !!

View from the balcony~*

This black and white room again ;P

washroom =)

I cant stop taking pic of this room =3

I wish I could have a study room this BIG ~*

Another study room~*

Obviously there's much better designs there but I don't take to take so much pictures of them with people following us around =/ Later I kena halau :P

Well, anyway that's all for this post :)

Byez ~* ;)

Holidays

2008-06-13T13:30:00.014+08:00

I have been longing for holidays since long time ago, but I feel so bored at home ==" *sighs*

At times we hoped for something very much, but when we get it, it isnt that great as what we expected.

*ignore my crappings*

So for this hoilday I just either online or watch these >>>

Pokemons !! Heee xP

But it's nice~ Some of them pretty touching =3

Something from an email that I received >>

The story is about an discussion why people talk loudly / scream when they argue. It's simply because when they argue, the distance between their hearts id very far away from each other. On the contrary, some couples talk softly, or they don't even need any words to express out their feelings, because the distance between each other's hearts is very near.

Having severe headache today and last night *sighs*

Hoping that everything will be fine.

Suddenly remember a story which most of you would have heard before ( I think ). Just a vague recollection of what I remember =/ *apologizes for my forgetful-ness* xD

Given situation :

You have a car, there's a person u like waiting for the bus, a doctor that have saved your life before, and a old man who's seriously ill and need to be send to the hospital urgently.

Who will you fetch?

The old man, perhaps?

There's actually no exact answer for this =) Someone answered, " I would give my car key to the doctor to bring the old man to the nearest hospital, and I'll just wait for the bus with the one I like." Easy answer. But how many of us will actually think of that?

Sometimes we are just holding something we have tightly, without knowing if when we actually let go of it, everything could be better. Guess it's something that I have to learn by heart.

Almost Lover.

2008-06-11T15:22:00.002+08:00

Saw this video from a blog and found out that that song is nice though it's a very emo song =)

"Almost Lover"

Your fingertips across my skin

The palm trees swaying in the wind

Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies

The sweetest sadness in your eyes

Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

I should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street

You took my hand and danced with me

Images

And when you left you kissed my lips

You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

I should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean

I cannot drive the streets at night

I cannot wake up in the morning

Without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted

And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that easy

To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

I should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

"Near To You"

A Fine Frenzy

Found out that quite a number of her songs really emo =/

Weeeeee~*

2008-06-11T13:48:00.003+08:00

Finally exam's OVER !!! =D

F-R-E-E-D-O-M

Never did I feel so stress (except for SPM) this before for my exam and I dunno why =/ This sem is sooooooo stress + busy + loads of problems *sighs* Even after T9 exam I didnt have the feeling of 'exactly relieved' also~

I screwed my T8 ~ and T9 *sniff sniff* I hate the examiner !!! " DO-YOU-KNOW-HOW-MUCH-EFFORT-AND-TIME-I-SPENT-ON-THOSE-ARTICLES ???" Pfffttt-ness man!!

Well it happened that I have mistaken the venue for my T9 paper and I went to the wrong class, lol..Anyway after I reached the wrong class only I got to know that my exam venue is at Monash Block!! So I quickly ran there and I saw a booth (whatever you called it, got two woman standing there right in front of a board stating the venues, guiding people to their exam venues) And I approached the booth to ask for my exam venue.

*there's two lady, with one of them is that woman I dun like since last time that EDC pack issue =/ So, L1 = lady 1, L2 = lady 2 which I dislike :P

Me : Err, excuse me, my number is 0417, may I know where's my venue?

L1 : Owh it's beside Mr.Teo office, you know where is Mr.Teo's office ryte?

*when I was about to answer her*

L2 : Aiyo she dunno lah, she from Sedaya *emphasize SEDAYA word, at the same time pointing at the board with a big word of SEDAYA, smiling proudly*

L1 : *turned and looked at me* You are Sunway student?

*I havent even have the chance to answer anything*

L2 : *approached me and pointing towards Mr.Teo office* Okayy you walk straight, then turn right...

Me : Owhh okayy thanks *runs*

Lol. =="

Tax paper was harder than expected, again I felt that very bad feeling when I was doing Paper 8 (Audit) *sighs* I was sooooooooo sleepy during the paper 9 exam and I felt like I gonna seriously dozed off anytime =X I kept copying the wrong figure from the wrong column, and for Question 1 itself I spent vast amount of time there correcting my wrongly copied figures with a =_= face *sleepiness*

After I finished my tax paper I still got lots of time and I flipped through all the pages of my answer script without looking at the contents ( feeling as if I have checked my answers) then straighaway zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz XP~

When the invigilator announced the time has ended for our exam, some of the candidates actually saying " Yesss!!" "yeah" "MERDEKA" Lol. Hahaha~ xD

Weeeee Wang Wang =) Wee Wang Wang ~*

ps : Looking forward for the gathering!! Miss you guys lots~* =3

pps : I feeling bored now =/ What should I do?

Lost

2008-06-05T09:59:00.001+08:00

I dunno what am I doing. I dunno whether I am doing things right or wrong. I just dunno.

I Stay In Love

2008-06-04T13:55:00.004+08:00

2nd post of today =) Okay I feel guilty now *sighs* Anyway just wanna share this song with you people ;) Good Luck for those are having final~*

"I Stay In Love"

Oh babyBaby, I stay in love with you

Dying inside cause I can't stand it

Make or break up

Can't take this madness

We don't even really know why

All I know is baby

I try and try so hard

To keep our love alive

If you dont' know me at this point

Then I highly doubt you ever will

I really need you to give me

That unconditional love I used to feel

It's no mistaking

We're just erasing

From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go

But I kept on hanging on

Inside I know it's over

You're really gone

It's killing me

Cause there ain't nothing

That I can do

Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself

That you'll come back around

And I try to front like "Oh well"

Each time you let me down

See I can't get over you now

No matter what I do

But baby, baby I stay in love with you

Na na na na na na na na na

Baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep

It hurts down to my soul

My friends tell me I ain't the same no more

We still need each other

When we stumble and fall

How we gon' act

Like what we had

Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is

Ride shotgun next to you

With the top down like we used to

Hit the block Proud in the SUV

We both know our heart is breaking

Can we learn from our mistakes

I can't last one moment alone

Now go I know

We said let go

But I kept on hanging on

Inside I know it's over

You're really gone

It's killing me

Cause there ain't nothing

That I can do Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself

That you'll come back around

And I try to front like "Oh well"

Each time you let me down

See I can't get over you

Now no matter what I do

Baby, baby I stay in love with you

We said let go

But I kept on hanging on

Inside I know it's over

You're really gone

It's killing me

Cause there ain't nothing

That I can do Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself

That you'll come back around

And I try to front like "Oh well"

Each time you let me down

See I can't get over you

Now no matter what I do

But baby, baby I stay in love with you

I stay in loveLove

Oh, I stay in love.

1 paper DOWN !!

2008-06-03T21:06:00.012+08:00

*shoot*

*kill* xD ~

Hoorayyyyy!! Done with paper 7 !! teehee~ *dances around* =D Two more to go~~ Paper 7 was okay for me lar, at least they didnt come with those insane calculation questions, and bomb us with theory questions such as "what is roling budget? what is blah-blah-blah which I dunno wht they are" *phewwww* hehehe =)

Well, anyway I forgot to bring my calculator into the exam hall ;P I know I'm a faaaaaailed accountant =X I just have the funny feeling that I have forgotten something before I went into the exam hall but I cant figure out what's that, and so when we were given time for reading the exam questions only I realized : MY CALCULATOR !!!

After that I just rushed out of the exam hall to get my calc =P

Anyway after I came back home my sis told me that my mom told her "Dunno whether your sis got bring her calc anot" after I went out =/

new friend!! ;P ~*

Whenever I feel bored studying I will just take pictures of my doggies and the sky outside the window =)

Reminds me of cotton candy =/

Stairway to heaven xD

The cloud shape is always different =)

*I took all those pictures right at the same spot

I hope the exam ends fast *sighs*

My brother and sister are having their holidays now and enjoy themselves watching tv, online, going out and resting *double sighs*

And I have to feed myself with audit and tax for the coming 5 days !!! *triple sighs*

*stress*

*sniff sniff*

I miss hoildays dreadfully!!!! =(

For now I'm placing the stuffs I gonna do after my exams as the highest priority. Cant stop thinking of where I wanna go and what I wanna do after my exams, even during study :D

My friends, go out after my exam perhaps? ;)

"Hi! Friend"

I cant stop laughing when I saw the smaller doggie (possession of my sis).

It's actually nothing funny about it, but I'm so used to the bigger doggie and the small one just looks so funny =D

*okayy I know I'm crazy* xD

Found a drawing of mine which I drew it very long time ago =)

Drew it 5 years ago probably, I'm not so sure, but what I'm sure is that I wont be able to draw this again =S

Study study study study study =/ *unlimited sighs*

Few Days Before Final

2008-05-29T16:11:00.012+08:00

Gonna have my final on 3rd, 9th and 10th of June! Time flies! This sem passed so fast, in a blink of eye I'm already so close to my Final. *gulps* So well, this should be my last post before my final then, have to set the right mood to study than online-ing here again.

Sweet chocolate. With a cycling doggie as model xD

A chance to see things that I have been ignoring / unaware about.

There are certain times when we are too busy for the scenery around us, even they are so beautiful. Was awake early in the morning today and got the chance to see the beautiful sky which I havent been really looking at for a very long time =)

View from my room.

Maybe there are too many things that we have left behind, or unaware about until we lost it. Or probably by any chance we got to look at them closely, and realized how beautiful or important they are in our lives.

Anyway, went back to sleep after that. Till noon only I wake up :P

Sometimes I love dreamless sleep. Maybe it's beacause I can't seemed to remember them. But I'd rather don't remember them sometimes.

The sky at noon.

When a small deed of yours put a big smile on my face.

~***~

At times I did feel like talking yet no one's around.

Pictures

2008-05-26T21:29:00.008+08:00

Now my recent two posts full with my doggie's pictures xD

Jusco. With Ding and Teng Siang behind =P

Foyer. Billy and doggie. and Ding's hand.

Foyer. Me and Billy. and doggie~*

Me and Ding. With doggie again~*

Evelyn, me and Liyun~*

Last one. Shall spare you all from looking at the same doggie again xD ~

Feeling sleepyyy now. Ishhh.

Nitez people ~* =)

p/s : I'm sooooo gonna die. I'm supposed to study!! =(

Greaaaat Memory =) ~*

2008-05-26T20:06:00.011+08:00

Okayy today was a GREAAAT day for me. I'm so outta words now xD hehee~

Thanks to ::

Ding, Billy, Cath, Emiko, Steff, Evelyn, Teng Siang, Manoj, Mae Yan, Rayven, Kak Liza, David, Raajiv, Suganty =)

* List provided by Ding =D

Thanks to you guys !! Loves~* =)

Special Thanks to ::

~*Billy *~* Ding *~* Teng Siang *~

For teman-ing me to choose present =D Though I dunno it was for me at the 1st place :)

It happened that Billy asked me to help him to choose present for his friend who's going to have her birthday soon at Pyramid after class with Ding. Well, since I have spare time ( while waiting for my dad to fetch me ) so I just followed along :D

Billy fetched the three of us ( me, Ding and Teng Siang) to Pyramid. We all talked a lot and I cant even remember why I laughed at tht time :D ( I remembered that someone named Ding talked a lot of crap - if I'm not mistaken =D ) I wont fetch Ding even when I got the permission to drive on my own, hahaha xD ~ He's like kept on giving false warnings that there're cars at the back / wherever when Billy trying to reverse his car. I would have got panicked easily if I was the driver, ishhh ! xP

So we went around finding for cute toys, first at Memory Lane, then I-forgot-what's-the-name shops. I cant recall the name =/ Owh okay, something Hinode? Then S&J, then Living Cabin. We walked around, and went into other shops in between :P In the process of choosing the 'right' one, they have been asking me for my opinions and I wasnt really aware of that until I really think back now (okayy I know I'm dumb =/ ) Anyway me and Teng Siang got ourselves something during the search for the present :D He helped me to carry my stuffs and I have forgotten that I have actually bought something until I saw him holding a big orange plastic bag. I would have left it somewhere else and totally forgot about it until I came back home if he didnt hold tht for me. ( This explained how I forgot my bottle,file and wallet )

Finally we went Jusco and we found a cute doggie ~* !! hehee xD

Take 1. Cant see the doggie's face properly.

Take 2. GreaaaaaT ! =)

Two busy people with sleeping doggie =D

I kept forcing Ding to take picture with the doggie and..... he refused !!! A lot of times somemore *shakes head* People won't look at us if you just posed faster lar haiz... xP

After that Teng Siang said, " Be the man, do the right thing!" And well, here it goes a picture of him with the doggie xD ~ haha

I was practically forcing all of them to take picture with the doggie eh? :P

At last..Reluctantly he was forced to take picture >>

*forced*

Gotcha! xD

*kena tipu that I have taken his picture while he was doing the first pose*

After paying for the doggie we went back to college, and 1 thing I found, they were so funny while they were in the process of finding a parking =D And I'm lucky enough not to worry about parking-finding problem yet, hehee~

Looks so innocent *hugs*

*name me pleaaaaseee?* xD

*hugs again*

New hairstyle xD

*okayy I know I'm childish*

*who cares, I have been so kiddy today fooling around with them* =D

*I'm just soooooooo happyyyy now*

A big THANK YOU to you all *hugs* ;)

* I looked so =.= in this picture*

To my dear sis, hope you can be strong to face all the obstaces underlying, and strive to be happy. There's only one way to live your own life to da max, it's just about loving yourself more. May you be blessed and no matter what happens, you'll still have me by your side =)

Just be strong kay? Stick to your principle, hold it firm. Believe in yourself. *hugs and sayangs*

- When we share our happiness and sadness together -

-trust-love-hope-

Thank Youuuuuuu =) ~*

2008-05-25T08:54:00.005+08:00

This post is dedicated to all my family and friends =) teehee~

Thanks a lot remembering my birthday, I'm so lucky to have you all as my friends n family ;)

Thanks to ::

1. Yee Fang
- For started to wish me birthday from 11.30 pm, hehe~ And cheered me up =)

2. Billy
-You are the 1st to wish me, thank you thank you~ Hehee, at 12am sharp ! xD

3. Emiko
- Thanks ya !!!!!!! hehee =) *hugs*

4. Kang Ping
- Heyy I didnt expect you to remember it actually xP ~ But..THANKS!! Whatever that happpened just be strong kay? Gambateh!! ;)

5. Evelyn
- Thank you thank you =D *hugs* You too happy alwyz~

6. Li XIng
- =) =D xD !! haha xD..Sorry I'm out of words now =/

*thanks for wishing me at 12am =) ~ *

***

7. Yee Fang

- Thanks again for the message ;)

(sorry for lazy to write all the 'thank you' again xP BUT.... I really appreciate it !! )

8. Catherine

- *hugs hugs hugs* =P

9. Fei Mien

10. Manoj

11. Si Munn

12. Chin Han

13. Darren

14. Wai Kent

15. Yiyi

16. Sin Hong

17. Xin Ying

- p/s : How you knw him 1 ar ? *confused* =P

For People who called me :: =)

18. Ding

- and thanks for wishing me in your blog xD ~

19. Kai Wen

- *kicks* how dare you forgot I'm the one who have the same b-day as you eh? xD hahaha~ Anyway at least you still called =D hehe~ I can feel your sincerity ;) Thank you thank you~ Take care !! Miss you lots !

20. Jinq Yeu

21. Yiyi

22. Hui Kee

23. Siew Kien

24. Fui Chin

*thanks for wishing me altogether even though you all are in Kampar !! Really touched *sniff* Miss you all, gambateh ya!! =)

For wishing me online ::

25. Mae Yan

26. Rayven

27. Teng Siang

28. Kok Chew

29. Kak Wah

* yee fang, boboy and ding again as well ;D

p/s : 30. Angeline =)

And finally ....

My Family =) *loves*

My Dad, Mom, Sister and Brother =)

Love you all !! xD ~*

This year is my best birthday so far, with you guys around!

p/s : I hope I didnt miss out any of you =/ Sorry if I did ~ =(

****************

Okayy I've really been wasting my time and slacking since the study break started. Frankly speaking I didnt get a time and really settle down and study. *sighs* Now exam is really around the corner, and I'm feeling worried.

Gosh I even had a nightmare last night about me reaching the exam hall late and I just have approximately 30 minutes more to finsh the 3 hours paper. Okayy I know it's lame ==" But it's really scary for me (in my dream) Panic-striken, I didnt even know how am I supposed to do the question *cries*

I think now is the time for me to set my mood to study though it's a bit too late right now =(

Anyways, Gambateh yea my friends !! No matter in studies or in life. May we all be blessed! xD

Cheers~* =)

p/s : Evelyn, I love da music in your blog ~ ;)

River Flows In You - Yiruma Great music ! ;D

Birthday Celebration =) ~*

2008-05-24T15:53:00.020+08:00

Whee~ My 19th Birthday today~ xD *dances around* haha..Well, thanks a lot yea for people who remember my birthday and some of them even sent me messages sharp at 12am *hugs* thanks a lot ya~ This year would be my happiest and greatest birthday so far =)

This post I'll just talk about my birthday celebration 1st =P Since today's my BIG day so I decided to rest ( skip studying to be exact, although I didnt touch my book starting from yesterday =/ ) Anyway had an early celebration of birthday on Thursday with Darren =)

Thursday ::

Drillbit Taylor

Okayy I cant deny that my memory is really bad. I watched that movie just like about 2 hours ago and I cant even remember the title of the movie. Aiks. When I went back college that time I actually told my friends that I watched 'Grillbet Taylor'. Okay now that's bad right? xD Haha~

Had our lunch at Chili's after the movie =) *yumz*~

Monterey Chicken

Flame-Grilled Ribeye ( I guess?)

After lunch he dropped me at college, and well, that's all for Thursday~ =)

Friday ::

Got an early present from my family =3

That's my sis' writing and design, nice lerr? *proud* xD

Froggie Card xP

And a small present from my dad in addition of my angpow =3 *loves my dad* hehe~

Didnt expect him to buy anything for me though =)

A simple photo frame with ...drawer? =P

Whatever he gives me also I'll love it for sure ;)

For everything he gives, it's to make me happy and good for me.

A friend of mine told me that I should actually thank my mom for bringing me to this world 19 years ago. Well, he's right =3 Thanks for teaching me so many stuffs in my life ~*

Saturday :: -24th May 2008 -

Finally ~* =) hehe.. Woke up with some messages awaiting *happy*

Some of them I didnt expect them to know / remember my birthday though~ Thanks again! I appreciate it very much!!

Going out with my loving family members =3

My parents have some work to do so we just celebrate in the afternoon~

Happy Birthdayyyyy to myself~* =) hehehe

Went The Curve. Eden.

Fried Mee

Seafood platter ~* =)

Lamb chop (Can't remember the name, sorry :P )

Desserts ~* =D

Soya bean with PEARLS

Love thise PEARLS~* x3

After this drink I'm way too full for my stomach's capacity~

Looking blurrrr xD ~

At first I wanted to try those cakes there ( Jelly cakes )

but it turned out to be...urhh... so kiddy, with all those Cinderella, Mickey Mouse and all those cartoons shaped cakes....so........

This is my birthday cake =) ~*

Mixed Fruit Cake.

Will update soon I guess,

Bye people ~*

And a big THANK YOU for my friends and family *heart* =)

When my day become different with you all around me.

Wonders.Ponders.

2008-05-22T19:13:00.014+08:00

Sometimes I just wonder if someone is thinking the same thing as I do. Whether they have the same thoughts as I perceived, understanding my feelings at that moment. It's great to have that kind of feelings, you know, the feeling of being understood. It's just like you don't have, and you don't need to explain so much yet you know they'll get what you meant.

The place I've been longing for. Peace. Serenity.

Beauty of nature.

Sometimes we can't make everyone happy or pleased with what we did, or what we are doing right now. There's no perfect person in this world. What we can do is only continue doing it, as long as it's right. Follow the way we are. Do it the way we are supposed to do. Afterall, we live not for others, we live for our own. Leading our own lifestyle. Try to listen to others and change if necessary =) Good friends are just mirrors for us, reflecting our personality.

I miss the person who sent me this picture a lot =)

When we are controlled by our emotions, we tend to do things in an irrational way. Thinking negative stuffs won't make our lives better. Try it another way round. Try to gain control over those negative thinking. Look it from another angle, another perspective. When we understand someone more, we will look at things they did in another way. From their angle. Putting ourselves in their shoes. When things go wrong, think twice. What have actually caused that? Is it us who caused that?

Hopes.

One of my favourite pictures ;)

By coincidence I found out the title of that song. Sounds so familiar. Brought me back to the times when I conquered all that. So do you, I guess? For someone who might no even know the link of my blog =) "I Believe In You".

Trusting someone is not easy. It's built on the base of understandings and commitments. It bears the fruit of secure feelings. When you trust someone so much, there's will be no hesitation to believe them in whatever they do. To believe they won't leave you when you're in trouble. To believe they will give you whatever best thing they could afford. To believe they will care for you, and forgive you for whatever mistakes you have done, whether intentionally or unintentionally.

The way we see things.

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. For the same thing, people perceive different thoughts. Relationship with people around us is like a mirror. It reflects the characteristics of ourselves.

Dreams. Hopes. Future.

Optimistic is about finding the best explaination for the misfortune in the worst situation.

=)~*

RamBlings.

2008-05-21T12:55:00.005+08:00

Heard a nice song from a blog just now and I'm kinda addicted to it dy xD ~

"Here In My Home"by various Malaysian Artistes For Unity. Some parts of the lyrics really meaningful though =)

Final is coming REALLLL soon, and my progress of studying is uber-slow. The result of staying at home will be : online, sleeping and me saunter around in my house ==" *stress* How am I gonna finish my studies if I continue with this kind of speed =(

Someone faster brainwash me / motivate me PLEASEEEEEEEE!! xD

*****

Today is the 21st ;D

*Teehee~ teehee~*

Look for the sunlight. Through whatever obstacles that's in front of us.

Be persistent.

Cute little hedgehogs~*! :D

Well, as stated in da title, it's just pure ramblings here~ Audit paper is killing me *sighs* There are still a whole lot for me to figure out what are they~

Well, owh yea...for Ding who is having your driving test today...Gambateh~*!! All da best to u kodok~ xD

And for my coursemates...GooD LucK and GambateH as well ~ Dun giv up ;D We must pass CAT ~!!!

Cheers ~* =)

Happiness

2008-05-18T14:36:00.004+08:00

Just found this and thought of posting it here =)

:: Life instructions ::

Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy =)

Sometimes we get too obsessed in our pursuit of happiness and we ended up being unhappy because everything doesnt seemed to go our way. But, let's have a think, isn't it happier to treasure every single thing we have now rather than attempting to pursue them frantically? Treasure every precious moment that we share with our loved ones and friends, treasure every single thing we owned and given with =)

Cheers xD ~ !!

These 3 days~

2008-05-17T19:41:00.006+08:00

It has been quite some time since I last updated my blog with things happening around me, so well, here it goes~

Hmm...been rotting at home before paper 7's EDC/EFC class started, online, eat, sleep, watching dramas, studying (at the same time watching drama so = nth goes in my brain) ...Hey I'm not at college okayyy, what do you expect? xP...Being at home is too comfortable and there'll always be endless temptations around you, pulling you to do other things instead of sitting down and facing the textbook and study. Don't blame me~ *runs away*

Phewwww....T7 edc ended at last, and I'm soooooooo exhausted right now. I'm really glad that I can now enjoy my days at home, though it's quite boring also with no one talking to xD
To be very honest, my brain was dead by this morning ( the last day of edc) Basically I was doing those calculations wrongly and kept bugging Ding and asking him why this why that xD At last I gave up (since my brain was 'shut-off' by the afternoon) and just practically copying the answer blindly...urhh..I'll review them...I guess?...Hmm...why huh? T8's edc wasnt that tiring also =/
My eyes from O.O ( semangat-ed at the beginning,haha xD ) to =.= ( half-asleep and tired) and then to -.- ( brain dead) Hahaha xP

Same book mark for both =)

Quite enjoyable though, even just listening to the conversations of people around xD I wasn't eavesdropping *shows innocent look* =P Anyway the 'how now brown cow' ( it's spelled like that, right?? ) and the 'cicak berak kapur' were the memorable ones for me ;D Hahaha~ So funny lar you guys.

Owh yea owh yea, suddenly remember something ( my memory backs!!! ) that irritated me this morning. So it happened that we were supposed to collect our answers for EDC/EFC pack and off we went to the store to get it. ( the whole group of us, normally if the whole group go to get the revision pack they won't ask us for student ID card and they let us collect for other people as well, some more today Mr.Jay called and asked them to release the answer for us I think ) And the woman in charge demanded for our student ID card and giving excuses for us not to take for other people. Come on lar, if they let to us take the revision pack for our friends then the line will definately cut down a lot okay? It saves their time to give out one by one also.. I can't really remember the reason she gave but it wasn't a reasonable one, seriously. So when I asked for 2 answer pack she kinda refused to give by mumbling some excuses, but I just found the name and asked her, "Can I get just one more answer pack?", pointing at the name and looking at her.

Reluctantly she ticked the name, and with disgusted look she took a crumpled answer pack (okay lar just the front page and the edges) instead of a nice one and gave me. She was about to take a nice one and she spotted the crumpled one, straightaway she took that for me. I meant, what I really mind wasn't that crumpled answer pack, it's her attitude. Can she be a little bit nicer to people? Hey we didnt insult her, and last time also she made a big fuss over a small issue during her supervision of T8 (Mock, I think?)

Owh well, anyway I shall not talk about this again, just suddenly remembered that :D Sorry people~ And hey now I remembered about my long-lost bottle and file. Went Pyramid today after class but well....I forgot to ask for it again. *sigh* What to do? ...Owh nevermind I shall just let them go xP

cute bear~!!!!! =3 *heart*

I can rest now dy~~ xD Hehehe~ I wanna take a nice hot bath, snuggle up in my warm and comfy bed and zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz !!! Bye people~ ;D

p/s : Read a blog of my friend and some of her words really struck me. Suddenly realised how close I am to my Final. Everything moves in forward motion, most of all, TIME !! Time flies, and now I'm still unprepared for my exam. The action of tallying the days to final really get on my nerves *worries* By the way, the next thing you see, I'm sleeping / online-ing / watching drama nicely at my home *help~!!*

-during study-

Gambateh my friends !!!~ xD

Bye ;)

touching story

2008-05-14T09:48:00.003+08:00

相信不少人读过这篇故事，不过还是post在这里，让那些没有看过这篇故事的人读一读 =)

一篇我看多少次就因感动而哭多少次的故事。你们相信世上会有这么样的真爱吗？

*****

「對不起....我愛你」

小時候坐爸爸開的車~~長大..坐男朋友開的車.
覺得很幸福..很快樂...
坐在副駕駛坐..可以不用注意路況..
可以一邊補妝一邊哼歌..可以不用擔心停車位..
可以不用擔心車子髒了..要保養了...
9年來..我是像公主一樣被寵愛著..被保護著..
台北的公車..台北的捷運對我來說..只是一個名詞..
我從來不用擔心我的交通.不論上班下班.逛街回老家.
我都是他接送的.我真的覺得很幸福..
朋友也都說我真的很好命車~
是他教睎提x..改裝是他告訴我.什麼是避震器..為什麼要保養..
他說車子是大老婆.我是小老婆..記得當時我還吃醋..
他笑著說沒有車車這樣載你.你怎麼皮膚這麼白.你怎麼都不用擔心風吹雨淋...
所以我跟他一起愛上車了....和他一起改裝車.
和他一起去跑山道.坐他開的車.就算跑到時速250了再快.我也不怕..
18歲那一年...他說.貝~去考駕照吧..
我說為什麼..他說可以拿來抵扣紅單阿..我說不要~~他說..其實.
假如有一天我沒辦法再接送妳時..妳一定要學著獨立.
學會自己開車.自己照顧自己.
我賴在他的懷中撒嬌說..你用永遠也不會丟下我..
接送我是你一輩子的責任..可是..被他逼著~
我還是學會了開車.當我10分鐘路考全過時..
他還笑著說..有偷學我的功夫唷１８歲的我．
考到了駕照了..說真的.我的生活並沒有什麼改變.生活依然是這樣.
他依然載我逛街.載我上下班.駕照對我來說.沒有任何用途.
頂多如他所說拿去抵扣紅單.很多人都說．
妳都依賴他載．沒有他載妳怎麼辦？
而且他都這樣管你管ㄉ這麼嚴．又這麼緊．妳都沒關係喔？
我總是覺得這是屬於我得幸福．即使再沒自由．我也甘之如飴．
而他．也把我當成他的責任．我們對彼此是把對方當成責任般．
我不能沒有他他也不想失去我．
他覺得照顧．接送女友．是男人都要做責任．
我覺得陪著他去跑山道．幫他一起改車．改音響．
是比我的工作還重要工作．因為他熱衷改車．．我也跟著喜歡車．
我喜歡搜集香水．他每２個月送一罐香水給我．．
我們在朋友們的眼中是這麼的幸福．９年來始終如一日．．．
我們都沒有變心過．也許有爭吵．也許也會為了小事生氣．但我們．
真的真的很愛對方．這麼相愛．我想連上天都會妒嫉吧．．
去年過年時．．他開車一路飆往金山的方向．坐他的車從來不會怕．
因為我真的全心全意的相信他．到了金山海邊．很冷．
他要我坐在暗暗的海邊．叫我閉上眼．他說．要送我一樣東西．
我本來想．應該是香水吧．當我睜眼時．我真的傻住了．．．．．
一整排的硬皮鯊一起開頭燈．刺的我眼睛睜不開．他從車隊走像我．．．．．
我想我這一生忘不了那種景像．
他沒有浪漫的問我要不要嫁給他．他只說．
這是我的求婚．妳已經是我老婆．今生今世．我們要一起到老．．．好不好
．我沒有說話．只是拼命傻笑．．點頭．．．
別人用鑽戒求婚．我男友．用車隊來感動我．
那天有將近２０台硬皮煞．都綁著愛心的氣球．
我們就這樣跑了金山．林口．北海岸．
我想也只有他求婚不忘呸車．．．．．

如果．．．如果．．．那天我們不去小硫球玩我．．
我想我現在應該是一個無憂無慮的家庭主婦吧．．．．
就在我們拍完婚紗照．準備過完年結婚時．．
我們答應了朋友的邀約一起去小硫球玩．他笑著說．
我們先渡蜜月．帥吧．．
因為他的車我們結婚時要當禮車．
所以當時下高雄褡船．我們不是開自己的車．
我們是坐朋友開的四門喜美．沿路大家說說笑笑．
到休息站．換我男友開時．他朋友讓我坐前坐．
平常我坐他車．我都不繫安全帶的．
那天．．他做了一個很奇怪的舉動．他幫我繫安全帶．．．．．．．．
他笑著說．．綁著．．不要傷到我兒子．．
沒錯．．．．．當時我已經懷孕１個多月了．．．．．
你知道嗎?懷有自己最愛的人的孩子是多麼多麼的快樂…
而這個孩子對我們來說又是這麼這麼的珍貴……
我永遠記得當我告訴他，我懷孕時發生的事情……
那天..我們跟車隊要去跑山道…要去九份烤肉……
路很小條..他要跟著前面的車彎來彎去.所以他開的很專心..
老公~今天媽媽中午煮海鮮粥.，我吃一點就吐了ㄟ……
他很專心開車連看都沒有看我一眼…
喔~那有沒有吃胃藥可是我覺得，不是胃不舒服喔~
那明天再帶你去看醫生..而且….我那個2個月沒來了……
喔~那個沒來~~也會吐喔~不是啦~~
老公我懷孕了…………………喔~~你懷孕了….懷孕~~什麼!!!
你懷孕了.!!!他突然猛力的煞車…………
我只聽到ㄍㄧ……碰~~~~~沒錯…後面的撞上來了………………
哭爸唷~~你煞車幹麻……他朋友走到我們的車旁……
我只見他傻傻的跟他朋友笑著說…我老婆懷孕了~~~~
也許你們會覺得…女友懷孕沒什麼，但是對我們來說，這本來是不可能的任務.
因為我的體質關係，卵子一直不容易受精，所以即使9年來我們從來沒避孕過，
但我卻一直沒有懷孕，也因為他是獨子，所以曾經一度為了我不孕的事情，
我難過的想分手，他卻認真的告訴我，沒有孩子有沒有孩子的好，
要一起走一輩子的人是妳，其他的，沒關係所以在我們的心中
，這孩子是老天爺恩賜給我們的結婚禮物懷孕之後，
產檢時，醫生告訴他我子宮壁比較薄要注重安胎，
所以，他不准我上班，不准我穿任何有跟的鞋子，不准我吃巧克力，
不准我用跑的下樓梯，甚至不准我看電視，又加上我孕吐的嚴重，
吃什麼吐什麼，沒有變胖，反而更瘦，他就帶我去吃任何我想吃得東西，
連假日車隊約要去跑山道，他都只是載著我慢慢開，
我知道他真的很期待也很重視這個孩子，我們因為相愛而結婚，
結婚前又剛好懷孕，一切都是這麼的美好，
美的讓我覺得很像做夢般，很怕醒來就不見…
那天~~~~在上路之前他說，繫好安全帶…
不要傷到我兒子…還用一件外套蓋著我得肚子，再繫上安全帶……
我笑笑的告訴他，不會啦，他還要出來跟你一起賽車…………
因為，他朋友的車是新車，什麼都沒改，他朋友就要他操一下那台車，
ㄍㄧ看看可以到多少啦!!我男友起皺眉頭說，真的要ㄍㄧ，
不要啦!!都沒改，危險啦!!不會啦!拜託!ㄍㄧ一下啦!
吼~煩~~~~坐他的車我不怕，不只是因為他的技術我很放心，
更加上，我們的車所有的安全性的東西我們都改的很好，
但是坐在別人的車，雖是他開的，但是我一想到連避震器都沒換，
有一點擔心，我握了一下他的腳，他微微笑著說，
跑一段而且，沒關係，他油門一踩，我看著時速表 150.~160.170.180.200
整台車都晃的非常嚴重，我說~
老公~~不要，當他放油門時，他朋友，卻說再ㄍㄧ，
而且手還伸到排擋桿這，往後拉一擋，車子突然暴衝，
前面又突然切出一輛車，他閃避不及，方向盤往右拉..，
車子失控，撞上分隔島，再彈出來，….後面的車又追撞上來就翻車了…
我們車頂朝下..在地上滑行約100公尺，我看著地上，鋼板摩擦地面，擦出火花，玻璃火花~
都往我的臉飛過來…嘴裡，想喊他的名字，卻怎麼也發不出聲音，
碰的一聲，車撞回分隔島終於停了下來…車子在極大的碰撞下.之後….
終於停了下來~~~有坐過360度的嚇嚇叫嗎?
在到最頂端的時候，人會懸在半空中，屁股離開椅子，
只靠著安全扣，固定著，當時我就是這樣被吊在位子上，
我想出聲喊他，但是胸懷的安全帶勒的緊緊的，好痛好痛，只能微微的發出一點聲音，
老公~救我…貝!!!沒事吧~
他一邊說一邊伸出手來握著我的手，好痛~~~~
不怕不怕~我在這邊……
他把我的安全帶鬆開，因為是倒吊著的關係，安全帶一鬆開我的腳就跪在滿是碎玻璃車頂上啊~
好痛……他握住我的手，我看著他用力的踢著車門，但是門都變型了，當然沒法開，
他改踹玻璃，玻璃一下就被他踹破，他先爬了出去，因為我的腳早已沒力，
他伸出手把我拖了出去，一出車子，他立刻扶我站起來，往安全的地方走
，握著他的手，我感覺的到他也在發抖，我也在發抖，我虛弱的說~
老公，我好怕……他更用力的握緊我的手，沒事了，我在這邊，沒事了……
可是才沒走幾步路，我感覺到我的下腹部，隱隱做痛，老公….
我肚子好痛………他馬上扶我坐在路邊，肚子痛~~很痛嗎??
他擔心的用手摸著我得肚子，等等唷~救護車馬上來…他緊緊把我抱在懷中…，
警察不久知後，趕到，有傷者嗎?
警察大聲的問有…我老婆懷孕了，她肚子很痛，快救她，快……
等救護車的過程中，我的肚子越來越痛，他一直握著我不停的說，
沒事的，你們都會沒事的，看著他蒼白，擔心的臉，我努力的咬緊牙根，
對他點點頭，給他一個虛弱的微笑，救護車一到，他把我抱上擔架床上，
自己也一起上了救護車，一路上緊握著我的手，他緊張得對一旁的急救人員說，
她剛懷孕1個多月醫生說，還不是很穩定，你們一定要救她跟孩子，
急救人員熟練的在我的臉上套上氧氣照，我看著他擔心的樣子，
忍不住流下了眼淚，他一見我哭，他更是握緊我的手，低下頭靠在我的手上，
對不起，對不起，我不應該開這麼快，對不起…
當他的頭一抬起來，我看見他哭了，眼淚從他的眼中流了下來，
在一起9年來…他從來沒流過一滴眼淚，甚至陪他去參加他爺爺喪禮，
他都沒哭過，現在看著他為我掉淚，我的心好疼，好疼，
我難過的搖搖頭，伸出手，幫他擦去了淚水…
一路上我不段默念著觀世音菩薩的佛號，我只乞求讓我肚子裡的胎兒能夠安全沒事；
一到醫院，他們就把我推進了急診室，他的手都沒放開過，
但是一進手術室，護士說對他說，你不能進去，他才放手，我看著他，
他看著我，一定沒事的，貝!你一定沒事的這是他在我盡手術室時他跟我說的最後一句話，
不知道為什麼，我覺得很害怕，比剛剛翻車時更害怕，
當醫生，在檢查之後，他告訴我，妳已經流產了，
我還來不及說什麼，麻藥就打進我身體，後來，我就不醒人事了……………
當我醒來後，貝~貝~~~耳邊傳來…一個女人的聲音，我睜開眼，
看見是他姊姊，姊姊~~阿仁勒?
我看了看周圍，他姊姊哭著說…快走~~他快不行了…
他在等妳…快去看他……她姊姊把我扶起來坐在輪椅上……
我愣了一下……誰快不行了…姊你說什麼…阿仁快不行了…
他胸腔破裂..肺部大量出血…快不行了…一直吐血…
他在等妳…快去看他………我一句話也說不出來……
一到加護病房，他父母都已經在一旁，傷心難過的哭………
我一過去他身邊….我真的不敢相信..我眼前的事實……………
他的鼻孔插著管子…嘴角不斷的流血…牽起了他的手…
老公..老公……不要嚇我..不要嚇我…他聽到我的聲音.睜開眼睛，
他也回握著我的手…對不起…貝!!我沒有保護好你跟寶寶…對不起………
不要..沒有…不是你的錯..你不要這樣說……
貝!!對不起~~我撐不住了，沒辦法再照顧妳……
妳一定要乖乖的…活著，我們改約下輩子再在一起，我再補償妳，
他痛苦的說這句話時，我的心都快碎了，我不要!!
你說你要載我一輩子的，你答應我永遠不會拋棄我的，
洪富仁，你說話要算話，不能丟下我…………你給我起來!!
老婆~~對不起~~~~~~~~~!!
我…愛……你………這一句話就是他留給我了最後一句……………
後來，我問醫院的醫生…醫生說他根本是用意志力在支撐，
因為他根本沒有繫安全帶，撞擊時，胸口猛烈的撞到方向盤，
肋骨斷裂刺入肺部，其實他當然應該是痛的不行，但是他撐著，
還抱我上擔架，還一路上陪我到醫院，直到我盡手術室他才吐血，
昏倒在地上，我知道，他只是要我不要擔心他，他只希望我們的孩子留住……
雖然他以前都會罵我，他做錯事從不道歉，但是我知道，真的知道……
他有多愛我…………
這場車禍，奪走了我最愛的男人，也奪走了我們的孩子，
辦完他的後事，我住在我們兩人以前的房間，好像一切都沒改變，
我總覺得他只不過出去了，等等就會回家，看著他的衣服，他得電腦，
我都以為這一切不過是場惡夢…等等他就會出現在身邊，
說…老婆~~不怕我在這邊……我開始活在過去的回憶中，
我躲在房間，不吃不喝，一直看著我們的婚紗照，
看他寫給我的字條，我把他天堂遊戲中的人物開著，
就好像他還在我身邊，我只是不斷的睡覺，因為我想他會回來我身邊的……
但是他一直沒來，我總會哭濕了枕頭，我一直告訴他，我在等你，等你回來…………
一個多月過去了，因為眼淚留太多我的眼睛已經不能再被強光刺激，
我開始想，你不來找我，我就去找你，於是我開始想尋死……
割脕，服藥，我真的很想死，我真的很想跟他去，
我開始恨他，為何帶走我們的孩子，丟我一人孤拎拎的在這個世界上，
好幾次，我總是很像快要看見他了，卻又被一雙手給拉著，那是我父母的手…
當我自殺，醒來在醫院時，媽媽總是在我的身邊難過的流淚，
我告訴她，媽..對不起，但是，我真的需要他…，
媽媽難過的說，我就妳一個女兒，你走了，我要靠誰……
爸爸，把我接了回家，朋友們經常來看我，
要我去外面走走，很快半年過去了，我仍然常常回他家，
整理我們的房間，整理他的車子，有一天，我在他家吃飯時，
我告訴他媽媽，我想嫁他，我要跟他一輩子，
他媽媽，流下眼淚，說..阿仁..交到你這個女朋友，
就算為了保護你而死，他也甘願，隔天，我們在他的靈堂前，
擲茭問他，可是，都是沒茭……
我和他媽媽，都傻掉了，為什麼…
為什麼你不娶我，你不是愛我的嗎?為什麼………
當我從早上問到晚上都沒有結果時，我哭倒在他的靈前，
你怎麼捨的留我這麼痛苦，我一個人坐在漆黑的房間裡，
哭個不停，我真的好需要你，以前你的世界就是我的世界，
你走了…要我怎麼活下去…忽然…有一種溫暖的感覺…攏照著我的身體……
我抬起頭……是他…他把我抱在懷中…
傻瓜…我一直沒走我一直在妳身邊..只是你看不見..你要勇敢走下去…
你越勇敢我才越開心…我在這邊和我們的兒子一起守護著妳，
當你的保鑣，寶貝…不是我不娶你...是我們早已是一體，
妳的手，我會永遠的握著…你不孤單的知道嗎?
老公…我也要和你在一起……我們一家三口在一起…我不要一個人.....，
我緊緊的抱著他…他抬起我的頭…笑著說，不行，
你要照顧爸爸媽媽，還有我們的車子阿…還有我們的狗狗，
還有我最愛的人阿……誰??………妳阿…就是妳自己…
答應我勇敢一點…我沒有走……我在你身邊…永遠…不要…老公不要走……………………
我一睜開眼…原來是我的夢……
但是那種感覺真的好熟悉，他真的來過了，在我的身邊老公…
我答應你.我會勇敢……因為我知道你在我的身邊，你一直在守護著我……

****************************************************************

兩年多了…我的憂鬱症也已經好多了…我努力記憶著他以前教我的開車方法，
我開著他的車，自己上下班，載他媽媽去買菜，我延續他的習慣，
從不電動洗車，我放假時也自己洗車，打臘，
很想他的時候就載著我們養的狗狗，去所有我們曾經去過得地方，
假日晚上，我跟他的朋友們一起去跑山道，握著方向盤的我，
過彎一點也不害怕，他朋友說，我開車的樣子，跟他一模一樣，
我總是笑著回答，你怎麼知道是我開不是他開的……
我不再留眼淚，我微笑面對一切，因為.......
我知道他和我們的寶寶都在我得身邊…握著我的手………
說不怕……我在這邊………(完)

p.s她現在努力的生活著.....我相信在她的身上..我看見了世界上最美麗愛情..........
這真滴是真人真事喔!!當有沙子跑進你的眼睛裡時，您有不去揉它們的智慧ㄇ？

心声

2008-05-11T23:32:00.004+08:00

有时生命就是如此

无论外表多么坚强

承载着多少厚重的保护层

内心终是一碰即碎的脆弱。

盼望着，聆听着未来的声音，

听，多么的美妙悦耳！

活在美丽的期盼中

等待着梦想实现的那一天。

一路走来的风风雨雨

沿途的一草一木

我都铭记在心

每一幅画都色彩斑驳

每一幅都那么赏心悦目。

无论未来多么艰辛难熬

秉持着坚定的信念

一步一步的走下去

直到美梦兑现的那一天。

蹒跚在漫天的迷雾中

看不清未来的旅程

当初的决定

会引领自己走往哪个方向？

不带后悔不带懊恼

怀着忐忑不安的情绪

去探索前方的未知。

我不知道还有多少日子

能够享受那静瑟的简单

品尝那甜而不腻的幸福

握紧余温未失的关怀。

平凡简单的事物

变得如此遥不可及

努力的踮起脚尖

拼命的伸长双手

去触碰那永远勾不着的美梦。

我别无他求

无需那轰轰烈烈的炽热

无需充斥于无限的物质之中

只盼那简单的幸福与关怀。

Audit Revision Class ~

2008-05-08T08:55:00.008+08:00

Finally done with our audit revision class ~!! Really exhausted these few days though, kept copying notes (almost non-stop) for 3 days. During one of these days 2 ladies came in and gave us some guide notes about registering for the next intake. If I can pass all my 3 papers then I will be able to proceed to ACCA next sem. Time flies! The memories of leaving my secondary school, registering for CAT, starting my whole new college life are still fresh, and now, it's already 1 year plus and I'm proceeding to ACCA soon ( If I can pass !! ) My goodness...That reminds me of how close I am now to my Final and I'm so unprepared. Yes, I'm really unprepared, especially for my Audit papers.I didnt even have a sound grasp of what audit is and what those procedures and so on.

And the worst part is, if any of us couldnt pass one out of three papars, we have to stay in CAT, to pass tht particular paper only then we can proceed to ACCA, which means we have to waste MONEY and TIME (6 months time) as well. Could feel a sense of worries when thinking the consequences of failing any of the papers. *gulps*

Okay now, I need motivation! Lols. Need to be motivated to study. Been sleeping a lot these days *infected by people around me* xD hahaha~ Been relaxing (with a sense of worries deep within) Been telling myself to study yet I kept finding excuses for myself to postpone it to later days. I am worried yet deep down I am being lazy to start my studies.

tallying the days with fear =P

Anyway, few things happened these few days =) Firstly would be the belated celebration of Darren's birthday ;) Click here to see the pictures if you want to. Forgot to ask people to take pictures using my phone though *regret* What to do, I'm so forgetful, till now also I forgot to ask about my lost file and bottle at Pyramid. *sigh* They have thrown it away I guess? Wanted to give him a surprise but attempt failed~ Since he saw my message with Kak Liza, aiks~ hahaha xD Anyway it still went on quite good =) hehee~

Okayy, next will be the answering question session in audit class. Ding has been saying that he wanted to get the ball ( Whoever kena the ball thrown by Mr.Jay or those who answered the previous question heve to answer the next question ) so that he can pull people's hair ( the so-called 'tiger pose' ) and ended up me getting the ball.

Note : I'm sitting in between Ding and Darren.

I hafta give 2 answers and I only managed to get 1 correct...So, unfortunately, Ding was the one who kena xP I'm sorry Ding ~ hehehe

And lucky you sitting beside me also ;) *you know why I say this* You seriously have so many enemies, arent you? xD

But hey I didnt pull hard, you should be thankful =P *deep down I felt thankful cuz it wasnt the 'lotus pose' or 'lotus-tiger pose' * So embarrassing lar my goodness =/

Hmm hmm, I think that's all for today~ =) Cant think of anything to blog by now~Byeee!!~*

*taken before paper 9 mock exam*

Special thanks to David for arranging the 'love' word xD
Didnt see him for a few days ady though~ Isnt he supposed to join Mr.Jay's class? =/

Pampered x3

2008-05-03T22:56:00.009+08:00

Thought of this topic when I was bored, relaxing, and lying aimlessly at my bed just now xP (tht shows how bored am I eh? ) Been relaxing and urhh.. at the same time busying on some stuffs which shall be done during this one-week "break". Didnt study during this one week though~ Now I just remembered what I said to myself after Mock : Gotta study after Mock ! I just leave this behind and placed "relaxing" and "enjoying life" as my highest priority by now~ Just see how I gonna struggle when it comes to my Final~ *gulps*

I think I'm 'pampering' myself by relaxing too much xP Lolz~

Anyway, back to this topic xD ~ *Pure ramblings for this post,people~* Well, as a girl I think all of us love to be pampered ;) No matter by who, parents, families, boyfriend, friends etc. Agree, girls? ;P

Okay, firstly~ I definitely pampered by my parents a lot, I have to admit it..Especially my dad. I think most of you knew it :P There are pros and cons lar, I'm happy and contented cuz I have a dad who loves and sayang me a lot, hehee~ But somehow I lost a certain limit of freedom, and at the same time made me become dependent on my family very much =/ *sighs* Anyway they just try to protect me from harms, I understand and appreciate their cares and loves, a lot =)

Sometimes we have to just pamper ourselves, to make ourselves happier xD ~ There's lot of ways to pamper ourselves though, such as buying things that we like, eating our favourite food *yumz~*, dress ourselves nicely, do things that we want to and so on.Hey there's actually a book with a title "2001 ways to pamper yourself" xD and here's a quote from the book:

Pampering means caretaking, indulging, making yourself feel good.

Enjoying nice food ~

Just read a 'self-love' list, and the very 1st rule : stop worrying so much. Hey that's one of my biggest weakness (Lol~) I dunno why sometimes I just kept worrying this and that ( for non-stop ) and ended up people around get sort of irritated. Sorry people~ I worry just for the things that I care a lot~ Anyway I try not to worry so much *try only* =P

Okayy, and for me, relaxing, lying on my comfy bed with my huggable toys is another way of pampering myself. Well, for those times there's basically nothing in my mind, or maybe some good memories that I treasured most =) Sweet memories recalling time for me, hehee~ and it's part of my routine everyday. Another way : Sleep more xD But don't overdo it, or else you'll feel even more sleepy~!! Sleeping is the only time we can dream, out of reality! That's the only time we can get ourselves in our own fantasy world, probably getting things that we could only get in our imaginary world, or do things that we have been wanted to do but we couldnt, and so on. Sometimes it's great to have such dream =) Excluding nightmares, of course.

Wake up early, get yourself a nice breakfast, enjoy the morning sunshine with a nice book =) Pamper yourself with the morning sunlight and knowledge~ Leisure reading sometimes helps a lot in our thinking. There's many things that affect us in our lives, and the most important thing for us is to stay strong and face all of them happily. Feel the happiness of enjoying the morning scene and fresh air =)

Urh hmm....and buying yourself things that you like =) Bags, clothes, earrings, sandalssssssss!!!! xD Just bought myself a pair of comfy sandals *loves* ;)

You'll definitely feel great after buying new stuffs :P hehee~ *For me it's very true..Owh yea, and soft toys too *heart* =) Though my bed and cupboards are full of toys, I still feel like buying them whenever I see cute ones~

Appreciating things that we have =) Well I dunno whether this considered a way of pampering ourselves or not, but since I'm kinda out of topic now so let's just continue with it, LoL..Appreciating and learning to appreciate things that we have will make us happier =D Look at the bright side~ I'm learning.
People, do tell me when I did mistakes =3

*yawns* Okayy I'm very tired now~ I think tht's all for today. Tell me other ways of pampering myself if you have any good ideas xD Nitez people ;)

Love And Life

2008-05-03T19:04:00.006+08:00

It so happened that there's a chance for me to read this story with someone special together =)

Hard to explain but there's a warm feeling while reading this. ( and of course, touched by the story ) Some special moments are just not easy to get or share so often, I treasured that, a lot.

This story tells us something about LOVE & LIFE.

My husband is S/W Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.

Two years of courtship and now, five years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness. I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings. I yearn for the romantic moments, likea little girl yearning for candy. My husband is my complete opposite; his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about LOVE.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce. "Why? " he asked, shocked. "I am tired. There are no reasons for everything in the world!" I answered. He kept silent the whole night, seemingly in deep thought. My feeling of disappointment only increased. Here was a man who was notable to even express his predicament, so what else could I expect from him? And finally he asked me: "What can I do to change your mind?" Somebody said it right... It's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered: "Here is the question. If you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind. Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff,and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death.Will you do it for me?" He said: " I will give you your answer tomorrow...." My hopes just sank by listening to his response. I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting underneath a milk glass,on the dining table near the front door, that goes....

My dear, "I would not pick that flower for you, but....please allow me to explain the reasons further..... This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.

"When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs,and you cry in front of the screen. I have to save my fingers sothat I can help to restore the programs.

You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you.

You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city. I have to save my eyes to show you the way.

You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend"approaches every month. I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy.

You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.

You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes. I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach,as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand...and tellyou the colour of flowers, just like the colour of the glow on your young face...

Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone wholoves you more than I do... I could not pick that flower yet, and die ... "

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting... And as I continue on reading... "Now, that you have finished reading my answer, and if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk...

I rushed to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face,clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread....Now Iam very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does,and I have decided to leave the flower alone...

That's LIFE, and LOVE.

When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness. Love shows up in all forms; even in very small and cheeky forms. It has never been a model. It could be the dullest and most boring form...

Flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands... AND THAT'S LIFE !

Was touched by this story though I think I read similar ones before. Maybe some of you read this before, but sometimes it's no harm to re-read it, and try to think about it. LOVE could be in the dullest and most boring forms, and it's true. Sometimes we tend to ignore, or unaware about the love that people showered upon us, because we're surrounded by it. We will only know how important they are to us when we lost them. If you have someone who are willing to take care of you no matter what happened, willing to stay by your side whenever you need companions, willing to do every little thing for you, you are very very lucky =)

*****

What I should I already said, and I'm just here to wish Darren

Happy Birthday !!

Hehee~ ;P

Thanks for everything =)

*Reminds me of the doggie on my phone, Lol =P

To My Dear Friends =)

2008-05-01T11:19:00.005+08:00

I love the scene :) Very much.

Thanks a lot for cheering me up and, all the best to you :)

And hey you're funny ;P

Hope you will be happy alwayz ~ !!!

People come and go in our life.

Some left great impact in our lives.

Longing for a holiday, a long break.

To spare myself from everything.

There's sunlight behind the cloud.

There's always hope in future.

I hope so :)

p.s : I love the black and white picture most, though I dunno who's that in the picture ;) It's warm to see such scene. A picture says it all.

- due to some reason I shall not post it here :) -

*****

My dear friends, don't worry too much about me kay? I'm okay *winkz* hehee~

I can sense your worries in the way you talked to me. I know you care about me all this while, even if I was busy with my own affairs and been not so close with you for quite some time. But I assure you, you are always my close and one of my BEST friends ever *hugs*

"What are friends for?"

I will always remember this ;) You really gave me a big big support when I needed it so much. I'm so touched when you said that, really.

Thanks for everything ya :)

And sorry for making you so worry :P You are a GREAT friend, indeed !!

I feel really lucky to have you as my friends ;) *hugs again*

.Just.Being.ME.

~*17.10.2009*~

Just Being RanDoM.

Without You~*

2nd day of CNY @ MV, Old Klang Road, MV

Of Reunion Dinner and The 1st Day Of CNY

Anticipation

2 down 1 to go

Just a lil' update~ :)

Steff's Birthday ~ 251008 ;)

Tagged.

Gone-d Bloggie.

Just Stand Up ! :)

Stories behind personality

Holidays please?

Friendship Never Ends

Tagged By Joey

Of what I think

Happy Birthday Gurls~

To Cath =)

Untitled

Of Dark Knight and My Lame-ness

Rants rants rants.

Of memories & random stuffs

100 'sorry's

选择相信？

Rojak

To choose or not to choose?

Outing @ 1 Utama

Genting Trip~!

Girls Day Out

One Day Out - The Curve

Be strong

Of Gathering & Visiting Showhouse

Holidays

Almost Lover.

Weeeeee~*

Lost

I Stay In Love

1 paper DOWN !!

Few Days Before Final

Pictures

Greaaaat Memory =) ~*

Thank Youuuuuuu =) ~*

Birthday Celebration =) ~*

Wonders.Ponders.

RamBlings.

Happiness

These 3 days~

touching story

心声

Audit Revision Class ~

Pampered x3

Love And Life

To My Dear Friends =)

~17.10.2009~